In the depths of despair, my thoughts roam free,
Contemplating the reasons why you abandoned me.
Was I a joke to you, a pawn in your game?
Or did you long for your ex, and forget my name?

You brushed aside my last message with disdain,
Playing a role, pretending to feel pain.
Your aim was to keep me distant, at bay,
But my heart still aches for you, despite what I say.

We began as friends, with innocence in our eyes,
But soon it grew complex, tangled, and disguised.
I swore to love only you, believing your words,
But what could a player like you know of love's rewards?

You claimed to be different, unlike the rest,
But your actions proved I had been misled.
Now, I grasp tightly while you effortlessly let go,
Hoping and praying for your reciprocation to show.

All I craved was your attention, your timely reply,
But instead, you left me to wonder and cry.
You vowed not to hurt me, but the pain runs deep,
I thought we were invincible, bound by a love so steep.

I foolishly trusted you, thinking it was us against the world,
But you never truly released the grip of your past love, unfurled.
Oh, why did I love you so fiercely, so blindly?
Now, I'm left longing, my heart wounded profoundly.

Each passing day, accepting we're apart grows tougher,
I beg you, don't abandon me, for you were my buffer.
The disapproval from friends and family stings,
But I stood by your side, sacrificing everything.

And now, here I stand, wishing I had listened,
But still, my heart yearns for you, its love unchristened.
Why did you play with my emotions in such a cruel way?
I chose you above all, but you couldn't choose to stay.

Was I merely a placeholder for you, a temporary fix?
Devoid of affection or meaning, just a quick flicks?
How foolish was I to pray for your well-being,
While neglecting the love and care I should have been receiving?

Though this pain consumes me, I'll rise above,
For there lies a love worthy of my heart, my love.
I'll learn my lesson, grow wiser, and move on,
Leaving you on the past still hurts ,with time I believe wounds will heal
© Tashy