I can't fight my own negative thoughts.
They creep into my mind saying ...

"What if I'm too ugly?"
"What if I'm too boring?"
"What if I'm too far?"
"What if I'm too short?"
"What if I'm too stupid?"

"What if" is all I think late at night...
Am I anything?
Am I going to disappoint him?
What is I'm not what he's looking for?

Why does my mind plot against me?

Worst of all,
I believe.
My mind believes these horrible thoughts.

I believe the worst in myself.


© Reyna Ober