Each day I wake is harder then the last I watch my life go by its moving fast
this corrupt world it stay turning
This pain in my heart it stay burning
Lord please tell me, am I better dead ?
Wicked thoughts run through my head
I can't stop the demons, alcoholism got a hold of my mother
I try n keep her alive for the sake of my brother
My life isn't easy come walk a day in my shoes
I strive everyday I will not lose
I lost my dad n it tore me apart
Losing you dad broke my heart
I see my oldest son Manny he makes me proud he's a wonderful dad
He was lost for a moment but he found his way n I'm glad
I see my son Daniel his eyes have seen Alot
Tell me have you ever stared down the barrel of a gun n came inches away from being shot
If that gun wouldn't have jammed he'd be dead
Now you can only imagine what goes on in his head
My daughter just wants to be loved in a world full of hate
I know she's gonna grow up n be something great
She's a str8 A student she makes me proud everyday
I know she's gonna be ok
My brother just got out the feds I'd stay beside him through war
We've got an unexplainable connection one can't ignore
He an excellent father but his BM always wants more
She has no morals whatsoever nothing she does is clever
My husband is my everything he's the strength behind all I do
Matthew Anthony Rossi I adore you. My baby dad will always be a part of my life
I wish him the very best! him n his new wife
I walk around with a smile but I'm dying inside
If I told u I'm good trust me I lied
I'm lost out here don't know which way to go
I hide my pain inside cuz I can't let it show
No one ever asks me if I need a hand
Sanity slipping through my fingers like grains of sand
One day it'll all get better I hope but for now I gotta find SOMEWAY to cope.