PS: Sexual explicit content discussed
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Why don’t men like me?
they all want to spite me
Play with my heart
Fuck on my body
Seems I’m the new towns hottie
Been going around trying to spread my love
To bad I’m so stupid for even trying
Discretion and discernment is what I lack
Been lying to myself
All the other boys know the actual truth
I’m just a quick fuck
Someone running off of dumb luck
They don’t want me or my love
Not even my thoughts or emotions matter to them
I’m just some some play thing to win
Let me pleasure them all
They don’t give a fuck about me
All they see is sex, drugs, and a beautiful face
They see a boy who has to much integrity
Like I’m some rock-in-roll dignitary
I try to push past the lustful eyes and sideways words
To bad I fall right into their traps
Put me on the mother fucking map
I don’t matter to them
Just a body to hold
A smiling face to look at when they all break my heart
Feeling so low and dumb
So used, like some fucking monolith to stare at and touch
Tried of these fuck boys breaking my heart, leaving me in the mud
Usually I’m numb and overly self sufficient, overly self aware
I’ve played this game to many times to know that I’m not winning
But once in a while a different type of boy comes around
Giving me a smile and some curated words
Hands me some flowers and a meal or 2
You know that’s what I enjoy,...