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BLINDED BY HER. . . (L.R.)
#WritcoPoemPrompt54
I feel my heart is wrenching and ask myself is it all worth it?
The pain... the crying... the anguish...
How she left me but I still chase after her.
When will I realize... she only stayed because she thought I was another her?
I always looked up to her... following her example,
but that led me to my current place of despair.
When I stare myself down in the shattered mirror... but see I'm the only one shattered,
my pieces lost in the darkness of nothingness.
I try so hard to cover my red eyes... burning with my never ending tears,
still drowning in their deep sadness.
Why did I never realize before... that she didn't want the real me,
maybe I did but still can't let her go.
I hear her voice calling my name... ringing in my head constantly,
even though she will never return to use her accepting voice like the past.
Where did my thoughts run off the track... killing the beautiful pristine flowers and trees and plants, with their streams rushing through their forest,
waiting for their full return to this day.
What wasn't good enough about me... that made her think I needed to change,
or maybe she was so sucked in and didn't know any better.
Oh my lovely butterfly,
stop flying further away from my garden,
watching it slowly die as you keep going on,
never looking back to see how sick I am,
the stinging tears flooding down my face,
the lack of love filling my heart,
my memories all I have left of our purest times.
How could you replace me,
How could you leave me,
How could you not accept me,
How could you want more from me,
How could you not love me?
How can you still. . .
How could I chase after you,
How could I wait for you,
How could I change for you,
How could I give everything to you,
How could I let myself be blinded by you,
How could I hand all my love to you?
How can I still. . .
Blinded By Her. . . - I was... and still am suffering from her. I was never good enough for her, and I still am not. I gave her all my love and acceptance, but am still left wondering where her love and acceptance are?
-- Lauren R.
© #outriderlauren
I feel my heart is wrenching and ask myself is it all worth it?
The pain... the crying... the anguish...
How she left me but I still chase after her.
When will I realize... she only stayed because she thought I was another her?
I always looked up to her... following her example,
but that led me to my current place of despair.
When I stare myself down in the shattered mirror... but see I'm the only one shattered,
my pieces lost in the darkness of nothingness.
I try so hard to cover my red eyes... burning with my never ending tears,
still drowning in their deep sadness.
Why did I never realize before... that she didn't want the real me,
maybe I did but still can't let her go.
I hear her voice calling my name... ringing in my head constantly,
even though she will never return to use her accepting voice like the past.
Where did my thoughts run off the track... killing the beautiful pristine flowers and trees and plants, with their streams rushing through their forest,
waiting for their full return to this day.
What wasn't good enough about me... that made her think I needed to change,
or maybe she was so sucked in and didn't know any better.
Oh my lovely butterfly,
stop flying further away from my garden,
watching it slowly die as you keep going on,
never looking back to see how sick I am,
the stinging tears flooding down my face,
the lack of love filling my heart,
my memories all I have left of our purest times.
How could you replace me,
How could you leave me,
How could you not accept me,
How could you want more from me,
How could you not love me?
How can you still. . .
How could I chase after you,
How could I wait for you,
How could I change for you,
How could I give everything to you,
How could I let myself be blinded by you,
How could I hand all my love to you?
How can I still. . .
Blinded By Her. . . - I was... and still am suffering from her. I was never good enough for her, and I still am not. I gave her all my love and acceptance, but am still left wondering where her love and acceptance are?
-- Lauren R.
© #outriderlauren
