My Dearest T,

If one day you wake up and I am no longer by your side, please don't be sad. I chose to walk away so you can have your freedom. So you can be free from all of this mess. From me and the obligations life has forced upon you. It won't be my intention to break you. It is my sole intention to let you see the world without someone like me. Someone who's too messed up. Someone who's too much for you.

If that day comes, I want you to open your doors to people. I want you to be happy. Even if that means, without me.I want you to enjoy life. To live your life to the fullest. To be the person you always wanted to be. No more second thoughts. No more what if's. Just go. And I'll take my own path too.

I know it'll be hard for me. To start over again. To gather the pieces of myself that I have scattered in this five-year relationship. But don't worry about me. I will be whole again. I will be a better person again. I will be free too. From my anxiety. From my addiction to you. From my obsession to this love that I have for you. I've done this before. I'll do it again. If life would be nice to me, then I'll survive this. If not, then I'll let fate direct me.

One day, when we meet again, I want to see your sweetest smile again. I want to hear your rich laugh. And I am hoping, really hoping, for you to be genuinely happy.


Love,
© silvervierre