Honestly, I always do remind myself that, “I can’t look like my problems just because I have them”. But sometimes, it becomes so hard to hide from them.

Sometimes, it makes me wanna tell; talk my heart out and let the world know that am passing through a hard time.

Sometimes, I just look at those things happening around me and I just ended up crying. Blaming. Cursing. Questioning my existence because i don’t deserve them.

Sometimes, the only way out I know is to tell; to tell the world i have them. I don’t pray any longer cause it doesn’t seem like it’s working. All i wanna do is to tell the world that, i wore them and find someone to blame for living that way.

“Maybe, I should just end this life,” i said, “Maybe I should just try harder and don’t let them break me.” I consoled.

I keep crushing it hard but those walls are rigid and can’t break. I got tired of hitting cause I have already given up.

But what about those times I used to be happy? I asked.
Maybe, I have forgotten how to smile. Those beautiful days and moments I used to have.
Maybe, I have forgotten those times I would pray to see the next day while going to bed and I would woke up healthy.

Maybe, I have forgotten the food on my table and my family, friends and people I have around me. Or how I do stand at the window just to admire the moon at night and count the shining stars.

I have forgotten all those beautiful wishes and dreams I used to have.

Maybe, I have forgotten that, there are so many people on the streets who wished to be at my level.

“If I can have a roof over my head and a comfortable bed to lie on, I will be fine.” I heard them say.

I’m not a victim, but I’m guilty of failing to see how beautiful God made my life for me. All I wanted is to tell, forgetting that, there are more to life than blaming. There are more to life than cursing.

There are beautiful things out there for me. They are people more happier than me even in their saddest moments.

I don’t know your story, but the real thing is: you are God’s perfect plan. He chose you before you were born, though you don’t know him.

A friend always say,” if you find out the reason you were created, ( that is your purpose on Earth) living becomes all you crave for”.

Now, I live cause I must live to fulfill what am called for. I don’t look like my problem anymore. I don’t wear them going about telling the world i have them. I never question my existence anymore, and i don’t blame God cause he is still God, no matter what I face in life.

He knows i have them and he will surely make a way. All he needs from us, is to stay strong. Don’t give up. The earth still rotates and one day, we will have a better story to tell.

Always know that, you are a perfect story someone wants to read. Be strong. Do your part and God will never fail you.
Please, wear that smile for me.

#love #liveright


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