I hate it
I hate that i am loved
Yes
That i am loved only because the one you have loved truly is not accepted
She is not loved by those you need to love her
"there must be something they have seen," you thought to yourself
"There must be somethng i have skipped yet i am crazy for her"
So you sought for a suitable alternative
You found me.
If only i had known all this before i poured my heart
Before i gave in my all
Walking away would have been easy.


Now i am in love
Now you are confused
The alternative turns out to be super good
Super exciting
She makes you want to forget the one you thought you were crazy for; the one i call "the other woman"
She makes you believe that perhaps the perfect family you thought you would never have is possible.





One problem
So it turns out
You want to leave the "other woman"
You think
🤔🤔🤔
"How can i do this without getting messy"
You have told her things
You have told her you don't understand why they dont love her as you do
You told her you compare what you have with the alternative and she doesnt measure up, shes far more loved than the alternative.
So the other woman is thinking, perhaps, the alternative is a ruse
The alternative will flop
The alternative wont last




See what people mean by "its complicated"
You have indirectly told her to wait for you
And now You cant unsay those words; the spoken ones and words hidden in strong emotions you both shared
My dear, Women have a store where words are kept eternally.
And i feel for her



Now the alternative is almost perfect
Shes clean
She strong
Shes brilliant
Shes decent yet fun
Shes selfless
Shes calm yet exciting
Shes beautiful
Shes a good woman
Shes prayerful or at least understands the importance of God in ones life
She has her flaws yet
Shes the best imperfect perfection you have ever seen in your life when it comes to relationships with women
Shes so many things the other woman isnt
Shes so many things you didnt know at the beginning
Shes loved by the people you want their blessings from

Hhhhmmn 🙄
If you knew
You wouldn't have spoken to the other woman the way you did
You wouldn't have made the other woman feel like there's a permanent future between you two.


You say to yourself
I love the alternative
I am begining to fall in love with her
I want a life with the alternative
She carries within her peace and joy
She carries within her all i need to move forward
I can live with her flaws
And i am as attracted to her as i was to the other "fun-woman"
So you try
You try to tell the other woman that things can't work out as she has hoped
You tell the other woman
"'I will be a best friend to you
I will take care of your needs
I will do all i can to see you stand on your feet"


Oh Honey
You want to be nice
You dont want to hurt her
She on the other hand speaks with her mouth
" its okay, lets be friends as we were before,
I will move on so you can be happy, i will give you two the space to transform your likeness for the alternative into love"

But the otherwoman in her heart says
"He loves me more
He said he loves me, he still does and he will leave the alternative"

So the day she found out
The day she heard that you have shown her around
Like a proud husband to be
She became confused
"How can this be?,




See,
When she told you it was ok to be friends
She thought you will miss what you were getting before the alternative came in.
She thought the alternative was no match for the influence she had over you.
She thought she had your heart
Now it seems she was wrong
The alternative is getting it all without struggling
So she speaks to you, trying to get a reaction
She tells you
"Men are coming, but i am not giving them the chance to be with me"
She says things like
"I can't be with another man
I don't want to cheat on you"


Shes banking on the distance between you and the alternative.
Shes praying that one day you will need the company of a woman and she will be there, available to rope you in, then hold you ransom as before and probably without a choice this time around.


Alas
None of this tactics are working,They worked before, Not anymore
One time she heard "He has shown the alternative to his best of friends"
She got mad, She spoke to you
"I thought you said you didnt want her, yet you do all this for her"

"You got a new house for her
You are furnishing it, you refuse another person seeing it till she did"

You told her, "i thought we agreed to being friends"

She says
"I am fustrated that. I wont be needed anymore"

You tell her,
"the alternative has no bad blood against you, she knows about you, she knows about when we fooled around
She knows everything and she has accepted that we are friends, I wont be more than that to you anymore my friend. I cant hurt her like that, besides we agreed"
You keep talking, "Theres no competition between you two, shes not taking your place in my life as my friend and neither should you" but we both know that she wants the place the alternative has called her throne.

Yes the alternative is not fighting to take the place of the other woman as a friend, simply because the alternative is your all, shes your happiness, shes your woman and now she's about to become your wife.
The alternative is in the best of place in your heart. And she knows it

Little does the other woman know
That the alternative is not just a loving woman
Shes a knowing woman
She has gathered information
She thought of leaving when she found out about you two
She tried to leave, but he had falling toooo deep in love with her to leave.


So the alternative played her game
She is playing her game
Now the alternative gets updates about the otherwoman
From the one she loves, from her smart mind and she plays the good lady.
She never confronts
She never lets him know how much she knew, she knows and how much she is deducing.
Shes ready to leave anytime though if he messes with her trust.
You can never be too sure of men these days
Yet the alternative shows him more love
She shows him shes capable of handling all his shit and mess.
She Motivates him
She Encourages him
She even Advocates for the so called "friendship" between the otherwoman and her love
When actually what she wants is happening


The other woman now
Is constantly insecure, as a result shows to you daily how scared she is of the alternative.

She is assured of the finality between the alternative and her lover.

She is scared she will never be needed

The best friend role and possible romance she had in mind is been snatched away from beneath her nose subtly.

She is currently just another woman at the mercy of what the alternative decides to do.

She is not a distant past
No, the alternative is well aware of her intentions

The alternative is aware also that
She's very much present

Yet the alternative treats her as a past experience
Just as she should
She is a present-past story.