Where were you all these years?, why don't you care about me? if only you knew how much i care about you, how much I needed you in my life when i was younger, for all these years you only got to see me once then You left ...Why?you don't ever bother to come and see me, did you even come to my birthday party when i was 2 years old?all these questions in my head I can't give answers to, got me feeling, lost, confused and like you don't care about me, i needed you in my life growing up I thought you would change and for once you would take the time to also come to me and spend time with me but I guess you never wanted to spend time with me, you once sent me a text saying that you love me but I never felt that not even once now you ignore me when I send you text, and when i tried to ask you money cause I really needed it and my mom didn't have it you ignored me,all you do is read my texts and ignore me..Do you even ask yourself what kind of father I am of course you don't you think I am doing fine yes I am but do you even know that I have Social Anxiety not because of you, because of reasons you would never understand, Imagine when I was in the third grade or fourth grade I had to cry just because of you asking myself when will change to make some time for your daughter, my Mother doesn't know all about this, I never toke the time to tell her how I feel and what's going on cause I am scared, my mom would think it's a joke or she wouldn't believe me soo I rather keep what's happening in my life with me and just remain silent and act all happy and nothing is wrong.
But now am old enough to make my own decisions, and I don't get to feel sad or lonely no more without you, I maybe just be a Teenager but at least now I get to decide on my own.

Dear Father I just hope you change one day that's my one and only wish.