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My life diary part 8
7:33PM SHIMLA
11 th march 2024
A great 📰news..... tomorrow we are gona start fasting as the wholy month of Ramadan begins from tomorrow yaaaay I am really so excited because I have lot duas to pray and spend more time will Allah SWT. And so I have to pray tariwiyah this evening and tahts why I thought since a new beginning starts why not to mention it here. yaşayan I am so excited really. Right now I am listening to Mai Tou Ummati Hu naat by danish and dawar.
So, these day in college have been just normal and we had test tomorrow but our mam said you people have meet up and as an excuse we didn't had the test and blaaa blaaaa blaaa. I am not gona talk about studies today cause time is limited I have to make wadu tooo and yaaa things are getting confused everyday when it comes to my crush. I don't know why but I feel right now that my crush doesn't even care for me because of what happened today. He asked everyone in our class to give intro but except me and another girl. And I swear he talked so happily with them as if he new them from a long time like best buddies wow jealous me.
this time he is getting on my head because I felt sad because he should have asked me too to come on stage and like if he liked me back shouldn't he be interested in knowing me. And invite me to stage to ask me about my hobbies etc like he said to others. He talked really so happily with them all and then I and other one were left he then said ok now you all go. That time I felt As if I didn't existed there. If you like me atleast you should have asked me too to come to stage but no. And It really made my heart sad that time.
In bus I asked myself and I got another answer, may be he wanted to protect me and that's why he didn't asked me to come to stage. Like he and his friends all were there both girls and boys. Maybe he didn't wanted me feel uncomfortable and that's why he did so. But then why he even skipped other girl too. It is so confusing the more I give explanation to myself the more new questions are raising within me. Really he broke me a little but yaaa he made me sad. Could it be that he is interested in any other girl of my class. Because you know what I once said that one girl of my class likes him and tires to get his attention, she talked with him so happily and I was really jealous. Anyways i am just thinking too much. It is really not destined that I be with him. May be Almighty has already planned other girl for him and yaaa I am sure that we won't end up together cause there are ample reasons. Anyways at the end I am gona break my heart myself by giving myself false hopes to myself. I think I shouldn't think too much when it comes to him. Like it is ok if he can't be mine cause it is not necessary that we both have an end. Well I am a practical girl and yaaa I will accept it . But yaaa I know If I kept doing it like this one day then surely I am going to break my heart myself I swear. I don't know why but I feel I have started loving him. My Almighty I don't know what complex equation I am putting myself in.
I want to spend this month more with Almighty and I pray that by the end of this month Almighty gives me a clear path. I am really so excited ok then take care I am going to make wadu. Please take care of yourself dear me. And yaaa dönt waste time otherwise I am gona pull your ears and I hope you know the reasons. Thank you Almighty for staying with me even though I am imperfect. Woooo I am so excited
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11 th march 2024
A great 📰news..... tomorrow we are gona start fasting as the wholy month of Ramadan begins from tomorrow yaaaay I am really so excited because I have lot duas to pray and spend more time will Allah SWT. And so I have to pray tariwiyah this evening and tahts why I thought since a new beginning starts why not to mention it here. yaşayan I am so excited really. Right now I am listening to Mai Tou Ummati Hu naat by danish and dawar.
So, these day in college have been just normal and we had test tomorrow but our mam said you people have meet up and as an excuse we didn't had the test and blaaa blaaaa blaaa. I am not gona talk about studies today cause time is limited I have to make wadu tooo and yaaa things are getting confused everyday when it comes to my crush. I don't know why but I feel right now that my crush doesn't even care for me because of what happened today. He asked everyone in our class to give intro but except me and another girl. And I swear he talked so happily with them as if he new them from a long time like best buddies wow jealous me.
this time he is getting on my head because I felt sad because he should have asked me too to come on stage and like if he liked me back shouldn't he be interested in knowing me. And invite me to stage to ask me about my hobbies etc like he said to others. He talked really so happily with them all and then I and other one were left he then said ok now you all go. That time I felt As if I didn't existed there. If you like me atleast you should have asked me too to come to stage but no. And It really made my heart sad that time.
In bus I asked myself and I got another answer, may be he wanted to protect me and that's why he didn't asked me to come to stage. Like he and his friends all were there both girls and boys. Maybe he didn't wanted me feel uncomfortable and that's why he did so. But then why he even skipped other girl too. It is so confusing the more I give explanation to myself the more new questions are raising within me. Really he broke me a little but yaaa he made me sad. Could it be that he is interested in any other girl of my class. Because you know what I once said that one girl of my class likes him and tires to get his attention, she talked with him so happily and I was really jealous. Anyways i am just thinking too much. It is really not destined that I be with him. May be Almighty has already planned other girl for him and yaaa I am sure that we won't end up together cause there are ample reasons. Anyways at the end I am gona break my heart myself by giving myself false hopes to myself. I think I shouldn't think too much when it comes to him. Like it is ok if he can't be mine cause it is not necessary that we both have an end. Well I am a practical girl and yaaa I will accept it . But yaaa I know If I kept doing it like this one day then surely I am going to break my heart myself I swear. I don't know why but I feel I have started loving him. My Almighty I don't know what complex equation I am putting myself in.
I want to spend this month more with Almighty and I pray that by the end of this month Almighty gives me a clear path. I am really so excited ok then take care I am going to make wadu. Please take care of yourself dear me. And yaaa dönt waste time otherwise I am gona pull your ears and I hope you know the reasons. Thank you Almighty for staying with me even though I am imperfect. Woooo I am so excited
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