Murderer?
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I blinked as I regained consciousness. I had hit my head hard, or had someone hit me? Then I realised I was holding a bloody knife in my hand. I searched around, to see if i had killed anyone? I always had that psycho in me. There was an evil mind, the "devil" , as i used to call! Had it taken over me finally? Had i avenged for the days I was treated bad? Had i killed my own people? Why am I feeling right, Even though it seems wrong? Why?, after all these years of patient waiting? Was it too much to take? How did i let myself to kill someone? Or so I was wondering, while i was lost in thoughts of the days when they all hurt me, when they all ill treated me as if i was born for being treated so badly. But i was quite astonished! I never could have killed someone, or so i told myself, when the devil was shouting from within, "I Can, you Can"!! I was scared, even though I was happy, that i was freed from being afraid every second, of them, of the pain i had to endure! I was looking for some clue, as to know what had happened! I searched throughout the house. There was nothing, forget the corpse, not even a single hair! Just then a thought passed my mind, or so I thought, as the devil screamed in joy "we just killed, we escaped, ooh lalala. We ran away, not to get caught, ooh lalala". That was when i ran upto the door to see if there was something i missed, or if there was a trail left! I surreptitiously glanced around, I could see nothing, not even a single vehicle or human upto the point where my eyes could reach. I felt a sense of relief for a minute before the guilt hit me hard. I was devastated deeply, by my own behavior. How could I possibly do this? That's when i heard Elixir barking from her kennel! Elixir, my sweet little Tibetan dog. She was a golden white lhasa apso. I wondered whether she knew something? Or may be she could show me something, a trace or evidence that I couldn't find. I reached her in a jiffy. She was tied, may be that was the reason for her yelping, she must have been in pain, i thought. But the yelp turned to snarl, no sooner i approached her to release the chain. She never, not even once, had behaved this way. I was ashamed! Had my action turned me into a true evil? Was elixir terrified of me? I had no idea. So i decided to move away from her. I might kill someone who have killed me a several times, but i will never hurt a dog that was my sole companion. I don't know why, but I wanted to explain this to her so badly. I wanted her next to me. I wanted to cuddle her, i wanted to hide myself in her Long golden white fur. But for the fear of hurting her more, I left elixir to herself, and progressed to the room in the attic, that was the only place i hadn't searched yet. I was afraid to see the cadaver i had killed with my own hands. As i approached the room, i cautiously opened the door, with anticipation killing me from within. I entered the room just to see nothing. There was not even dust in the room as i had cleaned them up just two days ago. I turned back to leave the room, that's when i saw myself in the mirror that was hanging from the roof, bleeding profusely, from a wound on my left wrist. I lost my mind. So was the blood on the knife mine? I did not know the answer! But, That was when it all came together in my mind. I was planning to cut myself to escape the pain. But i don't remember whether i did or not. I ran down to get the first aid with the thought how and why was i still alive, as i guessed i might have lost quite a lot of blood. When i ran to the kitchen cabinet to get the first aid, i had a jolt, as if struck by tremendous thunder. I was speechless at this surreal sight. I saw my own corpse, that had bled to death! I was dead. I had killed myself to death. Finally I had liberated myself to a pain-free life. I had set my soul free. Though it was a painful sight, to see my own dead body lying there, i felt a sense of relief, because there was no pain, not of the wound on my wrist, neither of the memories of the past nor of the burnt hole in my soul.
I blinked as I regained consciousness. I had hit my head hard, or had someone hit me? Then I realised I was holding a bloody knife in my hand. I searched around, to see if i had killed anyone? I always had that psycho in me. There was an evil mind, the "devil" , as i used to call! Had it taken over me finally? Had i avenged for the days I was treated bad? Had i killed my own people? Why am I feeling right, Even though it seems wrong? Why?, after all these years of patient waiting? Was it too much to take? How did i let myself to kill someone? Or so I was wondering, while i was lost in thoughts of the days when they all hurt me, when they all ill treated me as if i was born for being treated so badly. But i was quite astonished! I never could have killed someone, or so i told myself, when the devil was shouting from within, "I Can, you Can"!! I was scared, even though I was happy, that i was freed from being afraid every second, of them, of the pain i had to endure! I was looking for some clue, as to know what had happened! I searched throughout the house. There was nothing, forget the corpse, not even a single hair! Just then a thought passed my mind, or so I thought, as the devil screamed in joy "we just killed, we escaped, ooh lalala. We ran away, not to get caught, ooh lalala". That was when i ran upto the door to see if there was something i missed, or if there was a trail left! I surreptitiously glanced around, I could see nothing, not even a single vehicle or human upto the point where my eyes could reach. I felt a sense of relief for a minute before the guilt hit me hard. I was devastated deeply, by my own behavior. How could I possibly do this? That's when i heard Elixir barking from her kennel! Elixir, my sweet little Tibetan dog. She was a golden white lhasa apso. I wondered whether she knew something? Or may be she could show me something, a trace or evidence that I couldn't find. I reached her in a jiffy. She was tied, may be that was the reason for her yelping, she must have been in pain, i thought. But the yelp turned to snarl, no sooner i approached her to release the chain. She never, not even once, had behaved this way. I was ashamed! Had my action turned me into a true evil? Was elixir terrified of me? I had no idea. So i decided to move away from her. I might kill someone who have killed me a several times, but i will never hurt a dog that was my sole companion. I don't know why, but I wanted to explain this to her so badly. I wanted her next to me. I wanted to cuddle her, i wanted to hide myself in her Long golden white fur. But for the fear of hurting her more, I left elixir to herself, and progressed to the room in the attic, that was the only place i hadn't searched yet. I was afraid to see the cadaver i had killed with my own hands. As i approached the room, i cautiously opened the door, with anticipation killing me from within. I entered the room just to see nothing. There was not even dust in the room as i had cleaned them up just two days ago. I turned back to leave the room, that's when i saw myself in the mirror that was hanging from the roof, bleeding profusely, from a wound on my left wrist. I lost my mind. So was the blood on the knife mine? I did not know the answer! But, That was when it all came together in my mind. I was planning to cut myself to escape the pain. But i don't remember whether i did or not. I ran down to get the first aid with the thought how and why was i still alive, as i guessed i might have lost quite a lot of blood. When i ran to the kitchen cabinet to get the first aid, i had a jolt, as if struck by tremendous thunder. I was speechless at this surreal sight. I saw my own corpse, that had bled to death! I was dead. I had killed myself to death. Finally I had liberated myself to a pain-free life. I had set my soul free. Though it was a painful sight, to see my own dead body lying there, i felt a sense of relief, because there was no pain, not of the wound on my wrist, neither of the memories of the past nor of the burnt hole in my soul.
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