Once again i find myself pacing back and forth in the backyard. Only this time , i am drenched from the heavy rain falling harshly on me. But i couldn't care less about the fact that i might catch cold.

I closed my eyes, taking a deep breath and filling my nostrils with the scent of the rain. I let the rain wash away all my insecurities and anguish.At that very moment everything felt okay,i felt a strong sensation of liberty . I felt like the pieces of my broken heart were slowly mending into that one whole heart i onced possessed.At that moment i felt like the load that has been weighing me down all those years lift up my shoulders. The relief rushing through my body, untying all the knots restricting my every movement.

I sighed in frustration,as i decided to finally sit down on the front porch. If only all those feelings were true. If only i really have broken free from my sorrows. It was again one of those moments that never lasted,but atleast they kept me sane.The moment that gave me false hope.

I unwillingly got up,dusted the dirt off my favorite jeans, which was hopeless as I was already soaking from head down to the tip of my toes.I signed once again and braced myself for the yelling.

Opening the door i was immediately greeted by the warmth. Without sparing a second ,with long strides i quickly ran upstairs taking two steps at once. I finally arrived to the safety of my room. I swiftly got out of my clothes ,took a long warm shower .I then got into my fluffy pyjamas suddenly feeling warm.As soon as i placed my head on the fuzzy pillow, sleep instantly consumed me....