I'll be moving on click the next template button . Not spilln what I be workn on cause I doubt be fuckn important anyway. I wouldn't want you read it anyway. But you know id be coming back at ya with it later how it sounds on record tape. But y'all lucky I be rolling around with my audio on just playing my mixtape that I fuckn created and this true work of art even tho bitches probly thinkn I'ma waste of time . Fuckn let em think what they think and i be still moving on with beats on the background. . I'm coming out. How do you feel now. I still could give two fucks I be writing it in my books all day for a fuckn ugly ass bitch hater to stumble upon since anyway all they do is be going thru my shit so I leave them this to be like it feels like you be talking about me . And of course I gotta say what I usually say and tell them I'm not wasn't thrown no names about it . Better read it again and fix your fuckn feelings. How to teach em what it looks like when all your and rest of all my feelings gone. Out the window still wishing tho that they come back at me and try to prove me wrong. Fuck em . Cause I never gave a shit I just was to nice and invited them in just to have some fuckn entertainment. .and in the end theyd all in there head switching on me don't even give me time to rewind and really thinking I be hiding when I was never tryna hide. They be lucky I shut em out or id ha e done something I actually shoudvle done and fuckn shoot a mothafucker up with what they truly wanted … so that they probly feels some type of way I don't know but for some reason theyd think it was love but it was never what it was .it was envious built up because the fact I be true. To them and making them actually shine right out of there camoflouge fuckn pants. Ain't got nothing to hide from me now I know the truth. But even.now if ended different. Maybe I'd actually give a fuck . But no . Here we go again maybe now they'll open there eyes and realize that I wasn't a fuckn grand prize to put on a trophy case cause i be in the back ground slitting bitches apart thru the heart make sure they know how I felt . Break em down make there bed . Give em something sweet to eat . And fuckn poisonous filln for them to die a natural cause and make it look like it was fuckn homicide and how they created there own death walk away throw all this in the fuckn air. And watch it fuckn hit the ground. Everything I had ..and what is now fuckn nothing and i love to watch a hater know I not about it anymore . And that I've moved on kicked em all out of my fuckn head . And there memories of everything they tried to be to over empower my fuckn powers that I invited them to fuckn create art but instead they fuckn created a fuckn end . And there they are. Now . Thinkn of all the time and now how it's.gone and there's. Nothing left but haters living what they found and walked into thinking they be strong enough to take me out but they'll see I'm still up and I'll be out getting it on paper and fuckn producing the shit to spit in there fuckn face and then I be saying I ain't playin this ain't no tic tac toe try her again. It's fuckn live or die reality so you better realize who you be fuckn with next time you fuckn stick your nose into somebodies unwanted business . I be working with all I got what I fuckn came from and if they had maybe take the time and seen that I lived it too. Being what they're going thru be you know me it was all my fault .I couldnt .let them think they'd have that much to be counting on so they ever do it again. Maybe something will make them remember me and how I was when a mother fucker had no guns to fight them back and put em down in there death bed just like how they made me feel like I was my own fuckn storm and there fake ass feelings really be what be crashing unbreakable hearts and you see now .it was and still isn't a fuckn joke oh no hoe no. But I got enough tho to write a fuckn book cause my photographic memory tell me I better write it down so that from now on I have everything to remind me of how crazy it was to let some one make me feel some type of way they call it love. But in all reality it wasn't even what it was they be saying everything was fuckn joke .I didn't know how to cope with everything going on all at the same damn time between us and all of our fucked up differences . But they didn't even know this bitch and who or what they be fuckn with . A crooks blood. That's wanted to be spilln bloood by what the fuck she called a fuckn other half . Yeah that's me hey .I'll be the one to demonstrate the way they really be . But anyway I think it's finally clear . Of how and what the fuck I be thinking when they be showing up at my fuckn front door begging me to come in so they can be fuckn warm . And in the end I still helped them and still be getting shittin on and beaten fuckn choked and threw across my fuckn living room and spitting in my face. . I was about to take em out with the glass bottle hoping they be the ones to make the first move so I can fuckn end everything I let even feel part of something that wasn't even real. To me it was nothing. And nothing and still nothing at all. But s fuckn crazy dramatic distress level and least they had something to help move on after they left after they took everything of what was mine and even my feelings or what was left from already being threatened and talk down to but baby don't you think theyd be for once thinking of me nope I fuckn doubt it. And I keep on keepn on knowing nothin like nothing like that will ever be able to walk into my world ever again you know what I am saying. . for real I don't think they would ever learn. Or fuckn inhale the feelings . Mothafuckas if they even ever had none . From the beginning of there on fuckkn heart grown up . It was hard to tell them I even loved that was way stupid fuckn retarded of me to even open. Up with what I had left and I regret Everytime I fuckn siad it back to them but they be blainty mentally emotionally tearing at my seams making me something I thought i would never be. A fuckn phycotic .demonic fuckn angel demon that never deserved any of the bad things I made to be part of and lost within that I be speakn of being able to remember them all .no councling fuckn A 1 saucy and wasting my time tryna fuckn chew this and keep on keep on fuckn rappn to my fuck ln beats and my own feelings now cause that's what I learned thru the whole past we had created and destroyed stepped on by a fuckn nothing that just like to vandalize everything he ever laid his fuckn eyes on . And I be coming at them now .to prove em how it really left a fuckn scar in my heart and also in my brain cells . And thats what I get to take now to my fuckn grave . … something crazy . . … .. ayy……… something crazy… but here I am working with the strenght from being a part of this delerious atrocity. I can't believe I actually. Be saying it how it actually is and bet they would be pist but they see me now for what I am now and that's what there just gonna have to fuckn live with and learn how to grow from the craziness that's left all fuckn demonstrating this feeling and duh I'm the end it wasn't real it was. Fuckn play for them to come at me and steal all my things I even had put out or locked away I guess it never mattered because I trusted em enough with my mother fuckn apt key but what I learned after I write this is how many times I actually even left my self open for a fake to be able to engage in what I got and just forget everything and move on with who the fuck I built myself to be to prove them that there will never ever be a fuck next time that's for sure. Leave them broken and feeling like nothing in the dirt. Let them.live in there own pain and misery and hurt. Everything and all of what they wanted me to feel apart of ..what I got is what I got and I'd be spilling all the the fuckkn sulfuric acid back at them to disengage the flames they be tryna throwing at me and watch em burn up in the fake love and hatred and flames with no where or no one to put em out and no way how to scream out loud for anyone to know how they be screamN from the inside out for bloody help cause that feeling of noone actually giving a fuck will remind them oof the women I used to be that was so inticing or go them dream of if they could even be anymore what was left of there fuckn body lay discustingly disinerated and beat the fuck out of from the nelwy made fake love from me that they created which I'm sure is now fuckn devistating. And fucked up but too fuckn bad ain't got nothing left laying around to put the rest of this fire out which now got y'all burning to death . And I can finally be free and I can fuckn finally breathe I can finally be able to see the rest of the rest of myself .after living inside of this torterous hell I've made myself just because I got bored because I be thinking it was safe to try to open up again after an already wanting to be something that was beaten and battered into nothing out of everything i was and I just didn't know how much strength I had then compared to how strong I am now . But I guess I guess now I just inhale and thank myself for yet another fuckn lesson taught because I be always on my own always alone just like how the predator likes to take out the prey. And yet I still let them in feel apart of my life I might as well press rewind and watch it from the fuckn start to rewind everything over and over again just how truely crazy j am for even opening up to anything or to anyone or everything around me at all… and I keep on keepn on with what I got left which j know mentally be caged up within my braincells and scars and the invisible marks of the marks that went away from all the things that were said to me just to make me feel like I was nothing in my own place to put me down in and be able to shape or form how I feel but now I'm in control of my own self I can now know what it feels like inside of a killers mind and no way in life these bitches ever be brighter then the fire which is now turnt into ashes that there still ain't even no one to see you mothafuckers burning inside the hell I had realized was created because thruth is ain't noone out there for nobody else let em figure it out all by the rest of who I mean the rest of y'all nothings thats ashes be fallen on me so now I can walk this path and actually say that next time there will never be a next time or yoú or