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The day we met...
When I first saw you,I don't remember how I actually felt.I was young and not that mature.I think it was 6 to 7 years before from now when my eyes met yours.People would say that you cannot actually remember a moment after so long,but for me,that was the moment I never forgot.

You were there,right infront of me,a human being I have never saw before.You were saying something,maybe greetings,but I didn't listen anything.The world around me became silent and my eyes were fixed on you like stones.You,were the one I always wanted but even the idea of having you,was enough to shatter my soul.


To me,you were perfection.You were nothing like any man I ever saw.Your smile,it pierced my heart and the pain never left,not even now,even when 7 years had passed.
I thought that it was temporary...the attraction,the gravity,the mangnetic force that pulled me towards you,I thought that all of it will eventually fade away,that I'll be able to forget you sooner or later because we were both living far from each other,in two different cities...and long distance always ends any kind of force that exist between humans...but that was just what I thought... because that never happened.
The farther I stayed away from you,the stronger my feelings trapped me in a cage that had no way to escape...no way to escape from the eyes I saw that day.


And I used to count days and days and days for our next meeting.I used to mark every day on calendar that takes me more closer to the day we had to met and when that day arrived,I cannot tell you how high my heart was soaring.

And after those long hours,I was again infront of you.I wanted to touch you,wanted to feel you,but I knew that I didn't have the authority to so all I did was watch you from a distance and pray in my heart to have you one day.

And then,that eye contact!
That most powerful feeling I felt in my heart even when it was for a few seconds,our eyes met and our hearts collided and...then the smile you passed me...that was the moment I died ! That was the moment I was no longer me but all of you.


After our meetings increased,I realized that it wasn't one sided,the magnetic force.But I kept confusing myself,saying that its just my fantasy,saying that its just one sided and you don't feel the same way,just to be sure so I don't get hurt... because in the end,thats what always happens...we get attracted to this magnetic force so much,that one day,when it disappears,we fall down on our faces,and the pain never ends.
And to avoid myself from that pain,I kept reminding myself,that I needs to switch off this magnetic pull that I felt towards you.


But....my prayers.How could I forget about them!
With every passing moment,all I ever wished was you.All I ever desired for was you ! and then after years and years of wishing for you,how could I not got you!


I was thrilled when you told me that you felt the same way.That the pull that pulled me towards you was the one you felt too.That the eye contact we made for the tiniest moment was not the "most special moment" of my life but yours too.That the time when we unintentionally touched each others hand by mistake,the thrill I felt in my entire body,you felt it too!
and I cannot explain my feelings when you told me all of this.I felt crazy.I wanted to dance and cry at the same time.I felt as if my entire body died but my soul revived at the same time.I....I was so glad that you felt the same way.


And see,I am writing all this when you are sitting right beside me.That long distance relationship is not long distance now anymore.
I have you,right beside me,and I can feel you with my hands,just like I always wanted to.


~Sakura Sakka
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