ugh. For such a long time I've been hurting.
I've been trying to filter my emotions.
maybe to understand how i truly feel.
but sometimes it feels like I'm masking how I really feel.
Other times I feel like I'm addicted to the pain, and sometimes I feel like that's all I know.
like for the longest time I've just been sad, lonely, and hurting with intervals of short lived happiness.
some times I feel soo good, but that never lasts.
sometimes I feel complete, but the hole always shows.
every day I push, and distract my self.
I'm so tired and I want to rest. but then the...