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You were wasting your time on social media. You thought that your life is a mess. Neither you nor your siblings lived a happy life. you knew it. you were aware of it. you wanted peace yet the world changed your mindset. "The world?" you would think... "the world?"
No... it wasn't the world. It was the society. "Emily Hellen, you need to be like this and be like that. Emily, you need to study, Emily you need to be an engineer" your parents would utter. The " perfect" people inspired your family to make you live like them. you never had a hard life, though you were born to the middle class. you always had a good education. you had food and you had money. your parents wanted to make you an engineer thus it took you an hour to solve what is twelve times nine. your mind never wanted to look at numbers. your heart was obsessed with "words". Being a seventeen-year-old teen, made you feel insecure about your life. You are now doing engineering for your Advanced level examination. You are struggling. you know nothing about your future, yet you know that you are pressurised by your parents and teachers. " How can an exam decide my future? How possible is that? How can some bits of paper decide whether I should be an engineer or a failure?" your thoughts are collapsing like thunder inside your mind. Physically you are calm. Neither your parents nor your teachers note the furious war inside your mind. "Maybe I'm depressed" your feelings are echoing like you have been cursed.
On the final day of the exam, you throw your pen away without completing the paper. You know that you ruined the exam and your destiny is now designed. "A failure" your thoughts are bombing furiously inside your mind. "I want peace," you think, yet you only think.
Days and weeks pass. You spend most of your time on social media. You think that you have no purpose yet you love "words". Whenever you feel isolated or depressed you jot down your emotions.
" Oh, thou furious sun,
thou are making a fire in my soul,
Like I'm born to feel the burning flames,
Oh, thou furious rays of fire,
Let me be the hopeful water in the life...
No... it wasn't the world. It was the society. "Emily Hellen, you need to be like this and be like that. Emily, you need to study, Emily you need to be an engineer" your parents would utter. The " perfect" people inspired your family to make you live like them. you never had a hard life, though you were born to the middle class. you always had a good education. you had food and you had money. your parents wanted to make you an engineer thus it took you an hour to solve what is twelve times nine. your mind never wanted to look at numbers. your heart was obsessed with "words". Being a seventeen-year-old teen, made you feel insecure about your life. You are now doing engineering for your Advanced level examination. You are struggling. you know nothing about your future, yet you know that you are pressurised by your parents and teachers. " How can an exam decide my future? How possible is that? How can some bits of paper decide whether I should be an engineer or a failure?" your thoughts are collapsing like thunder inside your mind. Physically you are calm. Neither your parents nor your teachers note the furious war inside your mind. "Maybe I'm depressed" your feelings are echoing like you have been cursed.
On the final day of the exam, you throw your pen away without completing the paper. You know that you ruined the exam and your destiny is now designed. "A failure" your thoughts are bombing furiously inside your mind. "I want peace," you think, yet you only think.
Days and weeks pass. You spend most of your time on social media. You think that you have no purpose yet you love "words". Whenever you feel isolated or depressed you jot down your emotions.
" Oh, thou furious sun,
thou are making a fire in my soul,
Like I'm born to feel the burning flames,
Oh, thou furious rays of fire,
Let me be the hopeful water in the life...
