Well, let's talk about a few events about how you're feeling!
Spending nights leaving an island on your pillows and rarely uttering the fact you feel alone to parents!
As usual, certain people waved goodbye, and that hits.Yet you managed to hide your sadness to your family and friends for their happiness!
And, you have a mixed but calm emotion, which is kinda scary to explain to others! Even if you do, the question of "What if? the same sad thing recoils again?" shivers you down.
And you might feel like you can't shout at anyone. Even if you do, you can vent your anger to your dear ones. And a feeling like "I don't wanna talk to anyone" rehearses in your mind! There comes exhaustion when you realize that people around you use your energy for their use. And stay absent when you need a voice to recall you are not alone!

Further, this thought never leaves where you think, "I don't wanna, get surrounded by people! I feel low. I may not match their expectations!" Well, you can look up to the clock to mend you for temporary relief in the end. You'll accumulate a strong version of yourself! Lighter as the waters, yet holding the ships.

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