Am I the only one who feels someone else's pain when watching a movie about someone who has or is getting raped or molested? Is it because I been through it and it affects me more because I know how it feels from going through it? I just want to jump right into the TV and beat the living fuck out of the person that is doing it to the other person. It makes me cry to know that I'am not the only one that has to go through all the bull shit! Just because some people are desperate to get laid or to feel someone's body just to destroy someone's life over it! I really don't understand why my own father, some of my uncle's and cousin's would do anything like that to hurt me. I wish I could understand why and know the answer to my question. I understand why my rapist raped me and I wish that I did what he wanted, but some people told me that he would of done it anyways. I also don't understand why some people think no means yes when it is NOOOOOOOOO! You dumb fucks! I wish I could protect all the children from people that are like that. I hope I protect them from my father when I took him to court. I pray to God that he can't hurt anyone ever again like he has done to me and some of my family members on both sides! I'm trying to heal, but it's really hard for me. Specially when I have no one that understands and don't want to listen to me.
© Charlotte B.