As a chronic sufferer of fear of failure, I have been consumed by a constant sense of anguish and Turmoil throughout my academic journey. Every test, every project, every essay has felt like a definitive measure of my self worth, and I have been unable to shake the notion that mediocrity is simply not an acceptable option. I have frequently engaged in catastrophic thinking, anticipating the worst-case scenario and ruminating or the outcomes of potential failure. This has led to a tendency towards sleepless nights and an endless circle of self-doubt and uncertainty. Furthermore, this constant fear of failure has been the source of much frustration and anxiety. Every mistake or less than satisfactory result has felt like a personal failure, leaving in a state of constant anticipation and apprehension. I have found myself constantly searching for validation, seeking confirmation that my performance has been satisfactory and feeling a sense of dissatisfaction if it has not. For a long time, any mistake felt like a step backwards. Not getting that perfect score on every paper felt like an anchor dragging me to a future of disappointment. It felt like if I didn't do better, I wasn't worthy.
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