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Kevin was riding a bicycle, he was actually coming from his school when he watched Cristian praying at the church.
She was a very good friend of Ema who recently had slit her wrist to death!

It was just some months ago...


“Ema, Darling, take care, i am coming within a while”
“Hey, where are you going mom? , this is the 7th day you are going somewhere.
I want to know mom, where are you going? Is anything wrong with you?”,Ema exclaimed.
“No darling ! I am totally all right, it's just I have some new additional work to do”.
“If there is anything, feel free to say me, as after father had left us, you are the sole person who loves me, and hence you meant the whole world for me” Ema said with wet glittery eyes.
“Yes, my dear, always!”
“Bye bye mamma, take care”.

After her mother went outside, she locked the main door and went inside her room, for completing her assignment, which was given by school, but to the irony she couldn't put her concentration at the work as she was constantly thinking about her mom, so Yet! that was stuck in her head, as she couldn't figure it out what was happening to her mom.
These were maybe the consequences of loosing her father, as 3 years ago her father died in a car accident, and so she became too conscious when any matter is about her mom, who was the last person whom she can say her own.

2 hours after...
She decided to went to her mom's room for investigating.
And hence she did, she looked every single corner starting from almirah to bed, everywhere, but nothing was there that could satisfy her questions about her mom.

Hence, she decided to leave the matter and went inside her room and lay in her bed with her phone on. On the screen it shows a call from Cristian, her best friend whom she share every single thing, she picked up the phone,
“Ema, hey !
How's there ?
Everything all right?”

“I am fine Cristian, What about you?” Ema replied in a mid tone.
“I am fine too” she replied, but she noticed that Ema was not well, she could easily figure it out by her tone of voice.

Cristian: “Hey Ema, is anything wrong with you? Actually you always choose to remain happy but today the tone of your voices shows me a new side of you, Feel free to describe me, your every problems as a sister moreover as a close friend !”.
“Well yes!
Something was running in my head that is not allowing me to be happy;
I am feeling pitty as my mom always leave me alone for the whole day and return late night, and this was happening since 7 days”, Ema exclaimed in one breath.
“She must have important work then !”,Cristian replied.
“I don't know,
Well, wanna come to my home?
as i am feeling bored alone.”
Cristian: “Yaa! For sure”

After Cristian arrived, Ema took her inside her own room. And then they had a good talk.
“O god , i will die laughing !
Have you remember the boy kevin, who stares you like ghost ”
“Yep ! The most silent boy in our school”, Ema replied .
Cristian:“Probably he likes you!”
“I don't know, i never looked at him so closely”
.
Just then they heard the sound of knocking at the main door. It was Pizza delivery boy, as Ema ordered a pizza.
Both of them then enjoyed the pizza.

The clock shows 8 pm.
And hence Cristian decided to leave,
After she left, Ema started preparing the dinner.
So, as the other 6 days today also she cooked by herself and it's nearly about 10 pm when her mom arrived.

“Honey come downstairs i have something important to discuss”
“Yes mom ! wait a minute, i am going”
After reaching downstairs:-
“Pray tell me what's the matter mom?”,she asked .

Before starting the conversation her mom decided to have a sit .
So both of them sat by the dinning table, and there without any delay Ema's mom caught her hand.
“Listen emma !
Have you remembered what did your father asked you in his last breath?”
“Yes mom, i remember !
He asked me to be strong in every condition, how tough may the situation is”
Mom:“Yes, now listen, its going to be tough but you have to be brave.
I don't have much time left!
I am suffering from stage -4 cancer, and doctor said just a week left, he is diagnosing me since a week.”

“Wait, What !!” and the stored tears of emma continued to flow and the sobs wracked her body, robbing it of the ability to speak.
She quickly leaved the place and locked herself in her room.
Her mom understood the toughness of the situation and decided not to call Ema and give her some time for accepting everything.

Nothing is going to be easy.

Inside her room, Ema is laying on the floor near the bed, her eyes turned red, and she is repeating only one phrase “why me god?
why me?”
But the irony is that no one is there to answer her questions.

The night had gone and it was the morning of the second day where she decided to keep patience so that her mom's last days passed with happiness. And hence she prepared breakfast for her mom and they enjoyed the breakfast, though at every second both of them wanted to cry but both of them hide their tears to make each other strong.

That day in the school..
A voice called Ema, it was one of known voices from her classmates,
“Ema what happened to you?, nowadays you are behaving strange!”exclaimed Antonio.
(He was one of the most talented boys in the school, he was a very kind boy though)
She : “I don't know! probably these are the consequences of the situations i am facing currently”
And she left immediately.
After the school was over, Ema asked Cristian to met her at the cafe, and there she described her about the situation, she just began crying and started to exclaim,“she was the person whom i love the most, how can i let her go? ah ! ah !?” but Cristian hugs her and comfort her , “Ema , my sister come on ! you are so brave , lets fight the situation”.
“We have no option left”,Ema replied in a mid tone.

Then she left the cafe for home and she went inside her mom's room where she was laying in the bed, and the doctor was diagnosing her.
But the sight of her mom's ill health took all of her emotions away and fill her mind only with grief and grief.
Her head turned blank and her mind started to decline its positive energy.
Tears started to flow without any barrier, And her eyes turned red.
The doctor told Ema "4 more days left "
She can't handle the news and so she went upstairs to her room and began to cry badly.
“why me god ? why me ?”
"No answer!"
Silence surrounds the area..

The night.
She prepared a dinner for her mom but, she spotted that her mom was unable to speak and move so at an emergency she was shifted to hospital.

The next day at school:-
Slowly Antonio , Cristian and Ema had became close friends, and they were supporting Ema at her tough time.

Some more days passed away, and her mom's health become worsen and worsen.
Hence, she decided not to attend school, but due to exam she was unable to miss the school.

"Hello , am i talking to Ema?"
"No! I am her teacher"
"Myself doctor Andrew, Ema's mom was no more"
The teacher ran to inform Ema about this and after Ema heard the news she felt like her soul left her body. She hurried to the hospital and she saw her mom was laying unconscious in the bed, she was already declared dead.
She never thought that she will not infact have the chance to hear her moms last words, she regrets her life.
She was filled with anger, sorrow and emptiness.
Cristian and Antonio accompanied her along with her relatives to the grave yard and most of them were in tears.
But to the contrary now Ema's tears started to drying. She realised that her tears left her alone too.
Lots of things were running in her head.
“What will happen now? What to do next? How to pay my fees? Etc”
But she got no answer to her questions.

The happiest girl who always choose happiness over her all problems, that day was directionless, she felt like trapped and suffocating. It was probably because everything took place at such a quick rate that left her shocked, and mentally disturbed . "How much a girl who's not infact more than 21 can handle?"
“God ! Don't i deserve to hear my mom's last sound too? Whats my fault?”,she exclaimed by sobbing.

She was hopeless, she don't know what to do next.

Days passed away, and at the end of every day the same question stucked her head, which she readily asked to god,“why me god ? why me?”
Though as always with no answer she had to return to her bed.
Still, she tried to be normal and slowly slowly she started to heal from inside,
With a big heart she exclaimed:-

“Death ! An universal law !
Something that is true like hopes ,
Something that is nature's law ,
Everyone have to die one day ;
Though it maybe most painful ;
Though it maybe most peaceful ,
Still everyone have to fall down and lay !
To a forever sleep ,
From which no one can escape ,
From which you can never wake up ;
Nor able to cry and speak ,
Death ! An universal law !
Which ensures that everyone is equal for nature ,
Which ensures that no one can live forever ;
Everyone have to face it one day ;
Leaving behind a beautiful world to unknown place ,
Leaving behind your loving ones in ocean of pain ;
Though the pain dies too one day !
Someone who are lucky enough get a long life ,
Untill one day the body stops working !
Though are many who dies readily.”


Days passed away and she had enrolled herself in a part time job at the restaurant with Kevin.
And since she was good at writing poems, it was one of her biggest dreams to be a poet one day. Hence with the aim to be a great poet she decided to move on in her life.

But to the irony everything is not right again as the bond among Cristian and Antonio started to become deeper that both of them started loving each other, and spend time only among themselves, ignoring Ema , which hurted her feelings.
She kept waiting for them at every place but no one accompanied her further, nor there was anyone who comfort her for her losses.
So, she was all alone again.
Hence , she was probably mentally harrased again.
Yet ! now she don't want to make herself sick by any further discussion with those friends so she decided to leave them alone. Though again this made her hopeless as she couldn't figure it out why everyone left her alone.
She went to the church and began crying near christ ,“O god ! why everyone left me alone , everytime, everyday, why me?
what mistakes i must had done, which lead me to this?”
No answer !

Some days after a test was taken in the school and results were declared within some hours but since Ema was mentally disturbed hence she couldn't give the test with her full potential and so her scored decreased, which made her more upset.

She also heard that now people used to blame her for the death of her mom and dad, as per her classmates, she was the most unluckiest girl in the school.

“How much a person can handle?
Everything has a limit !”

When she went to her home, she went close to her mom and dad's photo and screamed badly,“O mom ! O dad ! How much i have to handle in this world? , I can't handle more mom , i can't, i quit mom! i quit !”
Quickly she left her home to the place where her mom was buried and cried on her grave . This time Ema's mind turned totally blank, she don't have any further wishes to fulfill, her hopes falled down, No more aims!

She loose her battle to life, she was already a living dead and then she exclaimed,“No more pain! , I have to end this chapter here, hence i Quit!”

The next day, while she was returning from school she decided to go to a stationery shop and brought a bunch of blades.
There she also met kevin who spotted her and he asked her to fell free for any things she needed and he also told her to be brave, whatever may the situation is.
“Yaa its easy to say ! but not in every single condition” she exclaimed with a smile, though from inside she was dead.
And she left that place in a hurry, leaving kevin's mind with lots of questions.

At the end , she decided to write a poem as her suicide note and she wrote:-

“ I Quit
I can't further ! I loose !
The battle i was fighting since years,
Which I always hoped to win ,
But ! Today tired of new arms and new armies ,
Tired of spontaneous attacks on me;
Now i will quit !
Which is the only way, i see ;
I accepted my defeat ,
Though i was already dead ,
Still , Now will leave this house like human body ,
I can't further ! I loose !
Though before this war ,
I used to be like everyone else ,
Both from outside and inside ;
Everyday a real smile !
Not like this which now i show .
Thought, one day I'll be winning the war ,
One day I'll be fulfilling all my wishes ,
But now i am tired and frustrated ,
My arms have ended and no armies to protect me ;
I am alone , reluctant to death ,
I can't further ! I loose !
My power has ended , can't fight further !
Though many days i tried my best ;
The war run long , since years ,
Hitting me at every stage ,
Hurting my feelings and thoughts ,
Melting my tears , bending my soul ,
The only way to get out of it is to quit !
Quit this life in search of a better place ;
Quit this game , which is killing me everyday !
Hence , I can't further ! I quit !”
~Ema Watson

After writing the poem,
She went to the bathroom, still with her clothes on and carried the pieces of blade in her hand, and she took out one of the blade and checked its sharpness.
Then she fill the bath tub with full of water.
Just then she went inside the tub and some water came out of the tub, then she gained courage and slit the nerves of her right wrist with the blade, no longer soon blood began to come out of her hands and then she slit her left wrist, the water of the tub turned red from the blood, she was just asking God to take her soul as soon as possible, “Ah ! Ah ! Ah ! I loose ! I loose ! I loose ! Ahhh ahhh ahhh!!”
Her screams even scared the walls of bathroom, but yaa! no one to hear those!
Red water from the tub started to came out which indeed turned the floor red. The scenario looked like a scene from hell!

Time passed and after an hour,
Cristian arrived, she had went there to take her books, and she spotted that the door was open, so after knocking many times, when she got no reply, she decided to go inside the house and so she opened the door.
"Ema , where are you ? , Come on, I have to take something from you"
No answer!

Just then she spotted water which were coming out from the bathroom, so she called Ema, but no answer came out so finally she decided to go inside and when she open the door -
"Ohhhh ema !! Ohhhh ema ,my soul, what you have done?" she turned pale and she began shouting holding ema with her hands.


Present day..
kevin decided to stop at Cristian and he did, after that he went inside the church he asked her what the matter was and
she began crying,
“ah ! ah ! i killed Ema, i killed her ,
i was supposed to be with her in every condition, but instead i left her alone , and she felt hopeless,
tell me , how i am supposed to be live with this tag?”
kevin didn't have any answer but still he told:
“She killed herself, and it was her choice to take her life , what else could we do?”


Though kevin was broken too, as he loved Ema yet he never got the chance to confess for his love, indeed he never had the courage to confess for his love.
Hence he cried for hours in bathroom regretting,“why don't i said those before?”
The question readily burns his head and this made him to think himself as a loser.
He was always insecure of the world, moreover he was insecure of himself. He believed that the day he will confess Ema , for his love, she will not accept it and his friendship would get broken, and he didn't want to loose such a great friend.

But the irony is that, now he had losed her forever to a world from where no one had returned.

(But, its true that!
Suddenly Ema got too much care after her death, which indeed she deserved to get when was alive.
"Care after death have no worth.")

That evening Ema's relative also hold a ceremony for Ema,
where they invited all those persons who were attached to her .
kevin went to the stage and gave a speech
“Everyone of us here is sad , everyone of us is filled with emptiness, This is all because a good friend of mine leave us alone in this world, though none of us have the option to bring her back, still the only thing we can do is to let her go.”

Cristian started begging to everyone for forgiveness, she was sorry. She constantly blame herself for the death of Ema, though Antonio tried to comfort her but nothing worked.
Since the death of Ema, Cristian was having the same nightmare where Ema asked her not to leave her alone,
"Help me sister, you promised to help me , don't leave me alone, please i beg you !" These all made her mental condition worsen, yet Antonio always comforts her .
But its always going to be true that if , someone would show more love and comfort to Ema when she was alive, then today she would be alive.
Well now nothing could bring back Ema Watson to life.

“We all killed Ema Watson”,exclaimed Kevin with tears in his eyes and regret for his deeds.

© Bishal kalita