Dear me,
I am sorry.

I am sorry for everything,
For freaking you out on the simplest things,
For trying desperately to help others,
And not noticing your own hands' shudders.

I am sorry for not giving you enough time to heal,
For not letting you live life until the fullest,
For not taking care of you when you needed me the most,
For forcing you to smile and laugh so no one can notice your worst.

I am sorry for not giving you enough effort to recover,
For chasing after someone who doesn't deserve to be your lover,
For replacing you with absurd people who's trying to ruin you,
For letting you face so many fears,
For allowing you to encase in tears.

And I am so sorry,
That I did not love you enough,
Like you deserved to be loved.

© fiz_