I feel like hitting myself.. hurting myself. bad. I hate myself. I hate feeling this way. I thought today was going to be good. Yeah, right. ha. im hardly breathing. Eyebrows scrunched, pretty much touching eachother. I can't feel myself. My heart is somewhere between achy and moving in slow motion. Im paranoid. I feel something is after me. A slight part of me knows its fake but my illness is pulling me to believe its real and right now now its winning.

I fell you coming strong. commanding me to kill myself and others. I fight. I fight so hard. EVERY FUCKING. DAY. Dr. Blank says to use the pyramid. Try to bring myself back to reality but when I'm in it its hard to even move. And I wonder if I kill myself right now will it go away? will I finally be at peace? should I do it? Will it work? If it doesn't, what happens then?

Can you guess?
if you can understand COMMENT a broken heart 💔.

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