My name is Josiah Bhola Hillaire and let me tell you a quick story about myself. I've been abused, depressed, overcame addiction and still dealing with turmoil. I've had three ex girlfriends (one whom I lost my virginity to), I was abused by my spern donor as a child and it was difficult. I trained in boxing when I was eight to eleven years old and trained in judo when I was eight and nine years old. Currently, I'm trying to get back into martial arts to heal myself from depression. I was bullied a lot in middle school and it was depressing for me. Things were difficult for me when I was a teenager. I started drinking and smoking when I was seventeen years old with older friends so I could be cool and also I drank to escape from my abusive childhood. I mainly drank tequila and margaritas, but also drank cocktails, red and white wine, gin, whiskey, champagne and other drinks. I was a casual smoker who wanted to be cool. During my high school years, I was trying to find myself and I always knew about my sexuality. At the time, I denied my truth because I didn't want to burn in Hell, but my life was a living hell at that time in my life. I used to experiment with different kinds of people as a teenger and I was finding myself. My first ex girlfriend who I won't name was very abusive. She used to punch and slap me in...