Devin continued to try to get me to trust him that morning. I wanted to believe the things that he was saying but God knows, even every preacher, Pope, doctor, nurse, teacher.
Everybody that has had everything that you knew as a woman snatched out from under, inside you.
Well let's just say after a while of being belittled it's hard as hell to believe what is really good. But Devin knew that me being hurt before it would take some time. I made a move to get out of bed throwing my left leg over the side.
Grabbing my arm wait he said looking at me where ya going. After all that talk it still didn't sink in. Look sex is sex good sex but it's still sex I said. Devin dropped his head sex, he said you're going to shut the door on love like that. We have been working together for a long time I have never even thought of sex with you. Jay I know that things are different now than the use to be. You have had your disappointments in life having your beliefs, wants, and needs disrespected.
I've had lessons on lost of what's real life is all about and love is important.
I've had time to learn living through relationships most taken for granted by me and them. I liked you from day one and things happen sometimes that you're not aware of like love. I see other women but they are not you. When you have the opportunity and won't, can't take it somebody is more important than sex.
I'm not going to prove nothing to you
love speaks for itself he said.
I know that you've been hurt but don't shut down on me. Jay I want to love everything even that, that you don't like. My heart felt two sizes too big for my chest. My body felt like a wet towel completely weak. He pulled back into the bed my body was shaking. Pulling me down under him his body covering mine I let go allowing his to love me. His left hand was under my back the right between my breast. His mouth gently kissed from pantie line up my stomach.
My hand grabbed sheets, pillow whatever was handy to hold on to.
I wasn't, not use to love like that. Somebody taking time to touch what is desired to be touched on a woman's body. You know it's a desire for a woman to be touched wanting to be taken time with. Touched in every way everywhere there is something to be touched to be felt and if you don't you will. His mouth was wet and warm on my stomach my hands went from sheets to his back. I could feel gentle amounts of sweat starting from his pores allowing my hands to slip easier over his body. My eyes closed I shut off my mind to everything but what was felt.
Silk it felt like as our bodies slowly touched each other in something we both wanted. It's not hard to love someone when they want you when they let you love them. It's not hard when the walls comes down no pretence no faking nothing.

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