It's seven pm, mama and I are currently in the living room. Sitting on the tight sofa while watching the night news.
" A FETUS WAS TAKEN IN A TRASH IN SAN LORENZO CORNZO. BASED ON THE SCENE OF THE CRIME OPERATIVES OR SOCO THE SAID FETUS IS ONLY THREE MONTHS " initial word of the news anchor.

This is the same time showing a blurred picture, but if you look well you can say it's like blood clots.
The corner of San Lorenzo is just near our house where we saw the fetus thrown away.
" That's too much, the mother of that kid is so useless. If they don't like their pregnancy they should not involve the child, it's not the fault of the child that was formed" mama said while looking at our tv.

I noticed her palms were still in touch that it seemed to get mad at the kid in the news.

"Ma, I have a question" I said

She turned to me, Waiting my words.

" Did you have a good time?"I asked while the news anchor still continues to speak on television.

" Have you tried to dropped a baby or I mean a fetus?" i asked with a serious face .

Mama seems to be true because of that question of mine. This was just dumbfounded by the loss.

" Ma?" then I shaked her shoulder.

She then blinked and looked at me again.

" W-What is that again, ' daughter?"
I noticed mama's being so weird. Is she okay?

" Have you tried to dropped a fetus before?"

One grain of tears got away from mama's eyes.

She's been quiet for a few minutes again.

I thought she wouldn't answer my question anymore but...

" Oh-Yes, my child. I was so young that time, I was just fifteen years old. Then the one who got pregnant with me left me, your grandfather and grandma didn't know my boyfriend before, so I entered a big shame for our family. So I thought abortion was the only solution to fix my problem. It's a problem that I entered "

I was also stunned by what Mama answered.
Mama fell before?
-If she dropped before, how...

" But I never did, ' daughter. Because the child is not involved of my wrong decisions, that's why I made her alive... I made you alive, my child "

I don't know, it seems that my heart is broken. While thinking that mama threatened my life before.
Mama hugged me tight while repeatedly saying the word,

"sorry my beloved daughter"
My heart broke into pieces.

Not only because of what mama admitted to me but also because of the bitter truth that I surpassed my fear. I was not able to fight for the life of the child I brought before. Yes I'm the fightless mother of the fetus who was in the news.
END.

to all the single mom's there,were so proud of you.

#fetus
#aloveofmother
#care