Come to think of it, isn't it a bit weird, a couple of days more and I'll be a year older, yet their is allot bout me to be known.

Strange, but their are something's bout me that's unknown to me though am the owner of the body.

Let's take for an example, I'm done with kindergarten, junior and senior high, but their is the thought of how best do I learn

Is it reading ( at times it's hard to comprehend all that's in a textbook ) is it listening ( as well as I tried to pay attention I do lose track of what the teacher or speaker is saying ) researching ( I'd love to to do research though its got to relate with something I'm into )

If it's something of my interest I guess all 3 methods suits well, but if it's not a topic of my interest. I still don't know how best I could learn.

Then I thought of my christianity. Am I a true christian or a simple-minded pagan,? Yes I do attend church activities but allot of that is based on the fact that I was brought up religiously.

Last week a sister and I had a talk, she said : knowing God and doing his works doesn't entirely makes you a Christian.

Then I remembered what I told mom : not everyone doing good out their is a christian some people just got what I call a ' good consciousness ' not all christian got that

Now I'm asking myself I'm I just one of those people. ( the category I told my mom bout )

Ok what bout my purpose here on earth. What is it I truly wanna be... Right from a tender age I got allot of things I wanted to be, a marine engineer, an explorer, an accountant ( I was really good with money, a child who keeps record of each naira that left his little palms ) but then I decided to take a career as a writer.

I'm not so sure, how good I am or how far is it, I'm going on that.

I'm now thinking writing or broadcasting? Dunno, but the good thing so far is that both revolves around the art field, so been an art student I'm pretty sure am still on the right track.

Wait! What bout the people around me, are they good?

Yes allot are good and smart too but is it just bout been smart? Do I want to keep someone's who's smart but self-absorbed, people who look down on me, as if I'm worth nothin but I look up to them cause they are at the top and I want to be their, cause to me it seems like they have it all.

I also do value ( my ) friends. I don't have much so I take the few I got serious but does it gives them a right to wanna act smart. Not wanting to spend but wanting me to

    And when I say no, they make me feel like a bad person yet they've never spent a penny on me.

Or do I wanna keep ( as friends ) those who got nothing but a big good heart and a unique sense of humor, who got dreams and act selflessly.

Do I wanna keep adults who are kids or kids who act, think and talk as if they are adults.

I keep telling myself I'm getting older but forgetting to let me know that I'm also just a young adult ( you know out there I'm still considered a kid ) I guess I'll keep them both.

And my sexuality? Am I gay or straight? Am I really a bisexual or I'm just saying.

What's so wrong with gays? I know you'll preach the Bible to me but then let's not talk scripture for a moment, let's not go on with society's standards .

Should it be of your concern whom someone else chooses to sleep with?

I don't know. I just thought bout it and I thought you should give it some thought as well.

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