Waist-deep in thought because I haven't slept in days, the silence isn't so bad 'cause it takes one to whisper quietly

Tried for so long but you won't be long to anyone, anything, any love at all. I thought I had it all until things started to recede, giving me no love at all not caring enough about my needs but your beautification gives me hope that I'll taste the sky and feel alive again and I'll forget the world that I knew but I swear I won't forget you. Gave you my heart and all my soul but not once did I let go, had the best love for you life but you didn't treat me right, no you didn't, to busy giving me lessons, didn't even have the decency to give me a blessing so I could sleep at night, life you had the nerve to break up our happy home. I stood by your side, sheltered for you when things were down, I help pull you through, faithful and all, trusting and warm but you took heart by storm

I pray this (LIFE) doesn't end and be a lesson so I can call it a blessing. I will always remember the day you came to my life, light as a feather and it went just like this. I don't know why I wake up sometimes, why I cry, why the wait, I give it all and you just take, it's never been better, we were only newborns but acting like grown-ups like we are in the present, "love is forever and ever" well, I guess that's true "but some people act lonely and some people are forgetful, even when they're in love" Usually much more confident than I am with myself "but me and you, we are more than lovers, we are all we need when we're holding each other" Now we've been through too much together and that's separate us from the rest, we are approaching up on stormy weather let's see what our love is made of.

I often hate that I'm stuck with you but as many times as I blink, I'll always be grateful for the time we had, we had it good. "You know, I spent like my entire time makin' sure you're loved, stood by your side, spent up so much time tryna make you happy, but I don't think you ever could be happy, I need you to understand, true ride or die, that's what you had". Well I loved you, once I would've died for you. You're my first love and no matter what the people say I'm gonna love you anyway, you're the air that I breathe the perfect one for me, I refuse to let you go and I refuse to let you leave, still, you're the sky that I fell through and I remember the view whenever I'm holding at the old pictures, looking down on the world as it warms over everything and your sighs harmonize with mine, unmistakably, I can still feel your heart, we got older and I should've known that I'd feel colder when I walk through this journey but i'll survive.

Now circle me and the needle moves gracefully back and forth, let the violet eyes get brighter and heavy wings grow lighter. I'll find repose in new ways 'cause you pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere, "if my heart was a compass, you'd be north, risk it all 'cause I'll catch you if you fall" those were your words. Well, if my heart was a house, you'd be home, you make me smile and cry at the same time but clearly feel blessed if the sun rose up and the stars lean down and I lie awake. Some other time, I don't know why I tried and I'm still trying, I still don't know why I smile, why I wake up sometimes, why the wait 'cause I give it all and you just take. "I swear I'm so thankful that you live, if I could take back all of the sorrow then I'd replace it with a smile"

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