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"The asteroid is heading undeterred towards us. We're doomed," the newsreader quoted, her face ashen. I just don't know what to do. I am completely bored. I am surprised too but not because of the news but because of not feeling the same as others are feeling right now. I should be scared but I don't feel that way at all. May be I am depressed enough to respond to this incident. May be I am too much in love of someone or may be I have lost my mind because I can't see any brightness in my future so there is no difference in my situation if this asteroid hits earth or not.
I don't give a f*cking damn !!
But some part of my mind says that such an attitude is not going to take me anywhere. I have to do something because I want to do something, something that makes me different, something that makes me recognised in front of others in a positive manner. I know very well that such type of recognitions are just materialistic and does not take us any where but such things are said by only holy priests who never go anywhere, they just sit at one place and let the world rotate around them. They never do anything and claim to know everything. Should I do the same ? Just take a place in some corner and close my eyes and wait for my heart to stop pounding and my soul to leave my body ?
They say that everyone was born alone and will die alone.
But what if someone was born with its twin brother or sister ?
What if someone dies in this asteroid incident with his/her spouse, parents, friends ?
There are no guidelines for such situations. Are there any ?
Is there anyone who can tell me what to do ?
Should I just die like that or do something to save myself?
I know there is nothing I can do to save myself from this asteroid hit. I am no millionaire or any rich government official or any such resourceful person who has any privilege to save myself.
But I wonder even if I was any of them, there was any chance of saving myself.
No money can build a spaceship in one night and take you to another barren planet and help you live there with full resources.
I believe this is the end of the world.
I believe this is how the dinosaurs went extinct even when they were so big and the most powerful creatures to live on this earth.
Nature is the most powerful being in this universe I believe .
It showed us that it can create and destroy both anyone, even the human beings and no one can do anything to fight it .
I am sad and heavily depressed because there is nothing in my power that I can do to stopit. I am feeling extremely helpless.
It feels as if I wasted all my life doing nothing and when the world is ending I can't do anything.
I used to think I am smart person but I am not. I am way more idiot than any average person. And the truth is that I am going to die and I can not do a single thing to save myself.
Atleat if I had worked hard, I could have gone in NASA or something like that and I could have built some spacecraft that could at least take me to some other planet.
Oh God, In this situation of ultimate death I am being so selfish but truth is that I had been reading all those sci-fi comics all my life and those Hollywood movies and TV shows that are making me consider such possibilities but in reality I should have worked hard to reach there and then again worked hard to do any such impossible thing. There are multiple people outside who are so and so much better than me and I am nobody in front of them. I have done nothing in my life. Maybe I deserve to die this way. God is punishing me and people like me to die. Everytime I stand somewhere, no one even looks at me.
An invisible being to exist I suppose. I am thinking so much and I have come across no idea till now whether what I will do to save myself.
Where is everyone ?
Where is my mom ?
She loves me more than anything in this world. Yes at least there is one person who considers my existence.
Thank you God for giving me one like her.
Wait ! There is one more.
Oh it's my Dad.
Such a cool guy he is. He talks very less but still keeps giving evidence of his unstoppable hardcore love for me and my mother.
There I got two people who are mine for sure.
Lucky enough I suppose.
I am falling short of words after talking about them. I am getting emotional maybe. I just don't want those tears to roll down my cheeks.
I am a coward I feel sometimes and that is why I have got no one else I can remember who can standby me in this catastrophic situation.
And also no one can help someone who doesn't want to be helped. I am doomed to die.
There is no one and nothing I can see that can save me from this catastrophe.
There are many people who feel the same way I am feeling right now. I have known many great people in my life but something has happened to me in recent past years.
I don't talk to anybody now a days. But it is not my fault. This is the fault of everyone.
Yes EVERYONE.
Too much has changed the world in last ten-fifteen years. This too much also involves the human beings.
We, no longer talk to each other anymore. We spend most of our time with our phones because that seems to be more interesting to us than before. Besides we don't want to be left behind in race of modernization and development. So we can't risk our time in talking with other human beings and telling them our genius ideas of success. The success that never comes.
I wish someone could tell when do we feel that I have done it big enough. I believe we never feel that way ever.
Every mountain I climb has a bigger mountain hidden behind it. May be there is nothing I could have done to save myself. It is not like I have never done any great things in my life. I have received unlimited victories many times in my life. I left many great warriors behind me. I could not understand at that time what was keeping me high and I can't understand now that what is keeping me down.
There is no logic that can make me find out the rationale behind these different phases of my life.
I too blame technology sometimes for this destruction of mine. These phones have taken away our minds. They have taken away our retaining powers. Humans are better than every other animal because of their memorising ability and these phones have neutralised this memorising power of them. And not only this, it has made humans more alone. They don't want to share their feelings with anyone anymore. And I know many people feel like me and try to warn others but there is one more truth that evolution is going on. And everything like this is part of our evolution. We can not stop this. And there is one more truth we have to roll down our throats that we all are doomed to die. No one remembers anybody. There are just inspirations and I say that there is no word like inspiration. If someone asks me to elaborate it more I would say that inspiration is just the moulded form of jealousy. Jealousy served with sugar syrup all over it. They show you photos of some old great personalities and ask you to get jealous of them and try to do something like them. Bloody fools !!
They never respect you in your life even if you do the biggest discovery of century and they remember you for centuries, the moment you step out of this mortal realm.
But no one is going to remember me in this realm or any realm. I will die alone. This is my end. But the moment I accept the reality of my end I am filled with energy. May be We all have to accept more and more truths in our life and that is the only way we can go through it otherwise we are always stuck at one place in our mind. All I have to do is accept my failure.
YES I AM A FAILURE !!
YES I FAILED AT SOME POINT IN MY LIFE !!
YES I AM A LOSER !!
YES I WILL DIE ONE DAY !!
BUT SO WILL YOU !!
AND SO WILL EVERYONE !!
This world is doomed to die and the only way to escape it, is to accept that you will die too. No one is going to remember you. Accept this. Your useless and worthless Body will be burnt into ashes or dug deep into ground and after that they all will go back to their homes and continue with their lives waiting for their own deaths.
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