There's something about the seed; doubt
You are not insecure,
somehow your security is put to different tests
You try to shake it off if certain conditions are met
Or if efforts are made or keep/regain your trust.

No!
Humans think they are capable
They think they have it all Under control
They brag about how they decide and take responsibility for whatever happens.
So you let yourself be in that same situation that put your integrity under scrutiny.


I have this to say
You are forgiven
All has been blotted out
From the depths of my heart
No evidences, no reminders


How ever
I am not God
I am not capable of continuous forgiveness
I am not capable of subjecting myself to constant pain and hurt...
My love for you will be intact but
I will walk away in love
I will walk away with love in heart for you
Without a backward glance.
With hope that we get it right given the next opportunity.