Hurt, again? yes.
Sad, again? yes.
Depressed? i don't know.
empty ? yes.

met someone.. my likeness grew into infatuation and then love.. I don't know if it's love..but it happened very fast.. my emotions were directly aligned with his way of treating me. If i sense a tone of irritation in his voice, i would feel dejected..is he disinterested in me?
I felt i could make it work this time around. i know..stupid, again? yes.

we were different personalities but it was okay for me.. better infact.. i felt him being in my life will open a new perspective for me. i was positive, my outlook was positive..
i felt happy and excited..thanked God for answering my long awaited prayer..

then what happened ? i don't know
the person came in my life so quickly and went away as quickly..
but why has my feelings stayed ? why am I stuck ? why i feel like a failure?

god, do you think i could have done anything different to make him stay ?
was i not loving enough? what could i have done to make him want me ?

i guess i will never know the answer to that.
one sided love, again? yes.
feelings didn't get reciprocated, again ? yes.
when you fail first time in love - you feel you deserve better.. next one will be the end game.

but what if, you fail the second time ?
maybe the problem is me.. i am the difficult one in a relationship.

giving up, again? yes.
© shivangi