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All my life I have been lucky. As in that I have never broken a bone or been in a serious accident. Not been lucky in love or with finances though. Most people will describe me as boring. Well I assume that is what they would say about me since no one hangs around if they can help it. My family even keep me at arms length. The last time I spoke to any of them was when they informed me about my uncles death. They didn’t get back to me to let me know when or where his funeral was going to be. If I think about that for too long it brings a tear to my eye and it makes me feel alone. The last time I thought about it I took two weeks off work and struggled to get motivated enough to get out of bed.

After being on this earth and total of twenty six years four months some days and hours I have concluded, that I could talk about glass eye to sleep. My job isn’t anything exciting like an international spy for MI6 or even as exciting as a warehouse picker. I could be but simply don’t have the strength to do anything physical. No I work in health and safety. The people in the company that I work for avoid me like a nun avoids Ann summers. They see me waking towards them in my hi-viz jacket safety boots on hard hat goggles and ear defenders and vanish. I should record them doing it one day Penn and Teller would be baffled by there disappearing act. I would suggest it to the guys if I could get close enough. Yeah I get it your probably thinking why not give them a ring or send an email. Simple emails can be ignored and phone numbers only work once for me. A girl friend would be nice. I tried online dating it didn’t go well. Francesca as she called herself online turned out to be a fat guy called Dave who still lived with his mum. Turned out even he had a friend and he had said he could make a man fall in love with him. They made a bet and Dave won.
On days when the rain falls and the sun hides it makes me feel a little less of a person than on the sunny days. It’s like part of me disappears behind a cloud as well.
On Saturday nights I like to have a movie night for one. I get a margarita pizza four cans of lager of witch I drink two. The other two would keep until next weekend. A bag of popcorn and rent a film. It is never a horror film I never understood the reason someone would want to scare themselves stupid. Give me a good musical, a comedy or action. I do like a rom com but let’s keep that to ourselves. My TV is a fifty inch LCD with seven point one surrounded sound. I have a leather mechanical recliner sofa with a drinks cooler in the armrest and charging port for my phone and speakers in the headrest. It would be nice to share this with...