I am lost
It is my first time to feel like every quote I have read and thought it's over is describing me
There is something hidden inside me
I have split into two and I have faded between them
Which one do I have to follow?!!
Do I have to be that strong one who nothing is bothering her just herself the one who matters and always depends on the only one who never let her down, herself...or to let what inside her out and to stop healing herself on her own?
They also didn't stop on that dead disagreement thoughts, There is a fight between these fucking tiring persons inside and it doesn't stop in that point.. How can I let my self there without tiring her more?!! I can't get enough of blaming myself for disability to decide which one has to live with me.. Hey I am blaming myself on what is exhausting her
I can't remember if I was that over-thinking person before or not
My head is just spinning out and I can't make it stop
I am afraid of falling apart in unprober time so it's my end simply
I can say now that I am living black swan's experience now, I can conceder my self as my only anmy, although all surrounding damn shit.
But I will smile, it's my decision I am fully convinced that this quarrel is an integral part of my soul that shapes my life to show it in the best possible way. These two inside me are me but with different and conflicting opinions, without them I am nothing and fuck others, I am not victim, I am my army, and that is my titanic victory,isn't it?!!
I am kidding, it's really a triumph