Who knew...that'd be the last time I seen u, I'd be walking the road looking for a car battery charger and get picked up for a warrant. . I didn't know that would be the last time I ever seen u, seen your face, the last time I'd ever be able to speak to you, the last time you made coffee for me, the last time you'd say a word to me... Who knew ou died when I was in prison I didn't get to go to the cremation but who knew the last time I seen you would be the last.... Your were my roommate at the time I usedta sleep on your floor, I used to live with you, take to to pay your bills, buy your groceries.. I did what I could to keep food for you and a cigarette for you to smoke. Who knew that when I smelled your clothes it would take my breath for a minute... Who knew u ment that much to me... Who knew you ment the planet to me and I'd take it off it's hinges if I could, slam the sun into it and destroy it because you did die and I am gonna have to accept that fact but who knew and who am I to u..... ... Who am I to anyone... They done showed me how they are.. ha I mean who am I... For u to mean anything ..... I didn't know I had to be somebody for u to even get a decent funneral. I miss you... And I'm sorry I wasn't anything to anyone but u ... I didn't get to say by... Or go to a funneral... So who knew that u ment that much to me cause I ment something to you I was somebody and ways heald my head up.... I mean who knew... 12-23-2020
11:48 pm I mean who knew you'd be who I'm writing and thinking about at work tonight I mean who knew and how long does it take to recover is something u didn't think about before you died... How bad it would hurt and affect me and u didn't ever think about that if you did then you weren't selfish but you should have got yours should have fun should have really lived and if I could ever have the money to do something I will wish that u were with me I mean who knew you'd die and my whole being my well being would boff that things would never be the same I mean it ain't a life and you deserved more even more than me showing up to take care of u and spend time with you... I mean who knew that you would leave that you would die and I'd be alone really alone u were the only one I had i mean who knew... Bye dad... 12:11 am 12/23/20


Dedicated to Timothy gwathney 2017 death. From cancer.

End of writing or poem by jennifer riggs

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