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I thought I had better get this ready before the time you said.
Not that it's an excuse or anything butt,umm
I have started talking to you now. See I didn't want this to be a letter because a letter is so final. I mean the sincerely ect,ect but I want to keep talking to you. With no
understanding what I'm talking about as you know I have talked to others but they have moved on so you're the now ear.
Lately I have been praying and asking the Lord questions. You know it's to talk about the Lord because someone like me isn't qualified to do so. You know what my situation is but you chose to lend an ear which is an answer to a prayer.
I don't want this something boring that you don't want to read but you know how somethings are. I'm going through something and I don't know what it is I know why and who but what I don't. First of all I thank you for lending an ear. But through all this the crying the loneliness the hatred I keep looking to see God in it some kinda way. I haven't and if have I didn't understand. I keep thinking about the verse you know the one that say seek my face.
You know I tried that and ask the Lord to show me his face and seeing his face is so powerful. I really didn't believe it until the morning Frederick died. As we were standing around him praying the Lord made me remember my dream the night before. In the dream I was in the city all the buildings were so tall you sky scrappers. But the biggest part of the dream was, I saw Jesus he was towering over all those buildings. He was the bigger than all the buildings standing there with his hands stretched out towards me.
That is what made me believe in that verse I seeked his face and I saw him.
The next time was when I realized what someone on here said was true. They that I was the most hated person in the world. They also said don't blame God and they don't know it but God would be the last person that I would ever blame for hate.
But anyway I prayed that night I told the Lord that I needed him and he said ask and ye shall receive and you will never leave me. And I said Lord I need you and Lord if you are with me I need you to see your face and I went to sleep. Well the next morning I got my baby ready for school sitting in the car my heart was so heavy. The came and picked her up I turned the car around and in the sky there was his face I stopped the car and just sat there until it faded away.
My faith is he is with me no matter what. I've seen his face more times the thing is that he don't show you his face when you are looking for his face. It's when you've forgotten you asked to see it. It's unbelievable you know it's like
bam there go Jesus. It shocks you. That's something you'll never get use to. I'll tell you about other times later. But if you haven't already guess my heart's heavy and I am looking to see him.
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Not that it's an excuse or anything butt,umm
I have started talking to you now. See I didn't want this to be a letter because a letter is so final. I mean the sincerely ect,ect but I want to keep talking to you. With no
understanding what I'm talking about as you know I have talked to others but they have moved on so you're the now ear.
Lately I have been praying and asking the Lord questions. You know it's to talk about the Lord because someone like me isn't qualified to do so. You know what my situation is but you chose to lend an ear which is an answer to a prayer.
I don't want this something boring that you don't want to read but you know how somethings are. I'm going through something and I don't know what it is I know why and who but what I don't. First of all I thank you for lending an ear. But through all this the crying the loneliness the hatred I keep looking to see God in it some kinda way. I haven't and if have I didn't understand. I keep thinking about the verse you know the one that say seek my face.
You know I tried that and ask the Lord to show me his face and seeing his face is so powerful. I really didn't believe it until the morning Frederick died. As we were standing around him praying the Lord made me remember my dream the night before. In the dream I was in the city all the buildings were so tall you sky scrappers. But the biggest part of the dream was, I saw Jesus he was towering over all those buildings. He was the bigger than all the buildings standing there with his hands stretched out towards me.
That is what made me believe in that verse I seeked his face and I saw him.
The next time was when I realized what someone on here said was true. They that I was the most hated person in the world. They also said don't blame God and they don't know it but God would be the last person that I would ever blame for hate.
But anyway I prayed that night I told the Lord that I needed him and he said ask and ye shall receive and you will never leave me. And I said Lord I need you and Lord if you are with me I need you to see your face and I went to sleep. Well the next morning I got my baby ready for school sitting in the car my heart was so heavy. The came and picked her up I turned the car around and in the sky there was his face I stopped the car and just sat there until it faded away.
My faith is he is with me no matter what. I've seen his face more times the thing is that he don't show you his face when you are looking for his face. It's when you've forgotten you asked to see it. It's unbelievable you know it's like
bam there go Jesus. It shocks you. That's something you'll never get use to. I'll tell you about other times later. But if you haven't already guess my heart's heavy and I am looking to see him.
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