I'm learning to look away when things get ugly. I'm learning to shrug my shoulders off when situations get messy. I am learning to just let it go and just go with the flow. Those things that I can't control won't bother me anymore. Those things that I don't directly affect me negatively could rot in hell for all I care. I've done my part and gave my all. If those weren't enough, then so be it. I'm going to leave it all just like that.

I no longer seek satisfaction in every angle of my life. I am solely contented in knowing that I have roof over my head, a home to call. I have food served in plates and a decent bed to sleep when it felt like my body is no longer capable of taking additional pain. I am more contented in knowing that if I can make it today, then surely I can make it the following day. My only goal now is to survive. And I'd do everything in my power to achieve that.

People can lie to me all they want. They can do whatever shit they'd like to do, as long as it does not harm me in any way, then I'll just pretend that I am not seeing anything, not feeling anything, not hearing anything. At the end of the day, I am me and that won't change a thing.

I already decided to take the drama off my circulation. I am not interested in confrontation. I am not even paying attention. I just don't care anymore. I just don't.


© silvervierre