I'm sorry from the deepest parts of my vacant soul.

I allowed my surrounding chaos to influence my actions.

I've learned to portray a deceptive calm so not to draw attention.

Unfortunately, this left you feeling abandoned during your storms.

This mirage of calm is something I too have come to believe as real.

I find myself seeking it in the darkness desperate for balance & stability.

But no worries my luv.

This illusion shall soon fade and it is I who will fall for all eternity.

This is my true fate after all, as every real thing I've ever had was taken long ago.

I was selfish to hold on for as long as I have.

As I only brought you and my other rays if light down with me.

It's in my absence I endure true sorrow and unrelenting agony.

Hoping I'll do right by you & protect you from a similar fate.

You've always been my sunshine.

The only sunshine I've ever known.

I know I broke your heart & this is why I've not returned.

So not in vain, know my absence is in love.

I dream of you every night.

It's your voice calling out to me that wakes me every morning.

I love you.

And I'm sorry from the deepest parts of my vacant soul.


© Lucid Sin~Sation