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Confession
“I think…I think he’s gone” I said as I fell into my mothers arms in tears. I don’t understand how someone who said he would be there for me and watch me grow up, could just leave. I thought I knew pain but abandonment hurt worse. Honestly, I should’ve known, we went from hanging out every weekend and talking everyday to only messaging once a week. Every conversation was “I don’t have to be here” or “It’s not my fault you feel this way”. It was always “Oh yeah, I could do this for you” then “I’m sorry, I can’t” followed afterwards. My father always knew which buttons to push.
“I let it happen so often that I numbed myself and I mean how could I have known. I was only sixteen . I didn’t know that a father was supposed to teach you how to ride a bike or to make sure I had shoes. We started arguing as I got older because I noticed all his wrongdoings. I wanted more. But he couldn’t replace the lost time”. I was only sixteen and I promised… no I vowed to not only never let him hurt me again but to get my vengeance. I wanted every teardrop back in blood. But I couldn’t actually tell anyone this part.
Instead I told the officers “I honestly didn’t plan how to do it” yet, when I was 20 and I finally saw him driving that tacky, silver 2014 Chevy covered in childish stickers into a parking lot, I couldn’t help but follow. I purposefully parked a few cars down not that he’d recognize me, he never saw me drive.“He was with a brunette woman in the passenger seat and a little girl around age five was in the backseat and I was furious. Before I could think, I saw him staring at his phone walking toward my car and I panicked, I rushingly grabbed my gun from under my seat, opened the car door and pointed it at him. I was acting on pure emotion, I was so hurt. He was shocked and was mumbling. Saying that he was sorry, that he got sick and had to leave. That he didn’t want to leave me but had too”. Reality was that I did start to tear up. I was so torn, I wanted to believe him, but how could I, he always lied. Not to mention he had another family. But I kept my story pushing. “Out of nowhere I heard someone say “…HEY!”. It scared me and I lost control. I shot the gun twice, right into his chest..I’m sorry” I said as two teardrops fell down my cheek, just as planned
“That’ll be all Ms. Camden” the man in blue said. The interrogation room was quiet after that. I hope they believe me.
© Makaiylah R
“I let it happen so often that I numbed myself and I mean how could I have known. I was only sixteen . I didn’t know that a father was supposed to teach you how to ride a bike or to make sure I had shoes. We started arguing as I got older because I noticed all his wrongdoings. I wanted more. But he couldn’t replace the lost time”. I was only sixteen and I promised… no I vowed to not only never let him hurt me again but to get my vengeance. I wanted every teardrop back in blood. But I couldn’t actually tell anyone this part.
Instead I told the officers “I honestly didn’t plan how to do it” yet, when I was 20 and I finally saw him driving that tacky, silver 2014 Chevy covered in childish stickers into a parking lot, I couldn’t help but follow. I purposefully parked a few cars down not that he’d recognize me, he never saw me drive.“He was with a brunette woman in the passenger seat and a little girl around age five was in the backseat and I was furious. Before I could think, I saw him staring at his phone walking toward my car and I panicked, I rushingly grabbed my gun from under my seat, opened the car door and pointed it at him. I was acting on pure emotion, I was so hurt. He was shocked and was mumbling. Saying that he was sorry, that he got sick and had to leave. That he didn’t want to leave me but had too”. Reality was that I did start to tear up. I was so torn, I wanted to believe him, but how could I, he always lied. Not to mention he had another family. But I kept my story pushing. “Out of nowhere I heard someone say “…HEY!”. It scared me and I lost control. I shot the gun twice, right into his chest..I’m sorry” I said as two teardrops fell down my cheek, just as planned
“That’ll be all Ms. Camden” the man in blue said. The interrogation room was quiet after that. I hope they believe me.
© Makaiylah R
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