I feel like I'm always being watched. I'm constantly being followed. I feel like a puppet on a string. My every move is monitored and controlled. Freedom is an illusion. Whoever or whatever this entity is controls every aspect of my life from my relationships to my finances. I just don't understand, why? What did I do to deserve this relentless torture? Why me? I've had countless bank accounts shut down suddenly for no reason. Repeated relationships that start great then suddenly nosedive. It's feels like someone is playing some sick and twisted game that is nothing but pure evil. I've tried so hard to get away but they seem to be everywhere. Strategically sabotaging everything I do. There has been times that they have even tried to kill me. I had a bullet miss me by mere inches. Their operation is highly organized and strategically planned out as though it was the government. But the government wouldn't use me like they have. At least I'd like to think they wouldn't. Could I possibly be caught in the middle of some organized crime ring that's under investigation? Why is it centered around me? I'm a nobody. Im not involved with big drug deals and money laundering or trafficking people across the border. If anything I'm the one being trafficked. If I was being watched by the government then why would they let this continue? I feel like a caged animal trying desperately to escape. Just as I find a way to break free from my cage, I discover there is a fence topped with razor wire surrounding me. They shatter my dreams and crush my hopes. They have taken away the things I valued the most. They have left me broke and broken. Whatever is happening, I'm still left to wonder, why???
© DejaVu