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Make me Live
The moment
part 7
My legs got weak, I couldn't seem to steady them. I didn't want to stay but I couldn't go. I laid my heavy back against the cold floor and stared into the blurry stars. Up there, it was a beautiful night.
"Pretty eh?"
I was surprised to hear somebody so close to me. I looked at my right and there was no one. I shifted my heavy eyes towards my left and someone was sleeping next to me. Despite the things happening to me, I knew it was her. That hair, her long flowing hair. I figured she was smiling but my eyes were close to blind.
"It is yo...uu.....youuou"
(My tongue feel so thick, what is happening to me?)
"Somebody is having too much fun. What did you drink? Who is 'you'?
I wanted to explain, our first encounter. There was no holding back, I didn't feel awkward sleeping next to a stranger I barely met, exchanging words I would have never spoken in my normal self.
"Thee girl in rain. It is youhh"
(I can make you understand but right now, it is hard to gather words I want to speak and after tonight, I might never have the confidence to face you again)
"This is our first meet Jake but I know you"
"Hooow?"
"When you have a face like this, everyone knows you"
"Issss this sssome kindd of joke? Thiss joke suck. Thiss party suck. Emma suck. School succck. everyone suuck. I just wisshhh...I wish.."
"You wish?"
"I wish I didn't exiiist"
"why?"
I faced her. Tears filling my eyes. It should have been embarrassing, I was 18, not 6 but it wasn't. I wanted to talk. The thoughts I called secrets began to surface.
"I am wounded. Deep innside I know I am born a broken man. I caan feeel this pain every night drowinng me but I don't even know whhat the pain is. Whyy am I sadd? I believe I havve people whho love me bbut love doesnnn't get to me. It lay outside my walls and I remmain freezing within it. I kknow you think I sounnd retarted, if I were you, I would bbut this pain, it's real, so real it hurts"
She kept looking at me and it felt good, her eyes on my face. We were so close, I could smell her cherry scented skin. We remained still, eyes locked. Then she carefully brought her fingers on my cheeks; soft, fragile fingers. I hugged her, hid my face in her sweater, my heart got louder. Happiness was real, I felt it.
Her warm breath on my neck, I was lost in her warmth. I slowly brought my eyes next to hers, stared at the blue pair of stars, brushed the strand of hair on her lips and kissed her. My first kiss~
part 7
My legs got weak, I couldn't seem to steady them. I didn't want to stay but I couldn't go. I laid my heavy back against the cold floor and stared into the blurry stars. Up there, it was a beautiful night.
"Pretty eh?"
I was surprised to hear somebody so close to me. I looked at my right and there was no one. I shifted my heavy eyes towards my left and someone was sleeping next to me. Despite the things happening to me, I knew it was her. That hair, her long flowing hair. I figured she was smiling but my eyes were close to blind.
"It is yo...uu.....youuou"
(My tongue feel so thick, what is happening to me?)
"Somebody is having too much fun. What did you drink? Who is 'you'?
I wanted to explain, our first encounter. There was no holding back, I didn't feel awkward sleeping next to a stranger I barely met, exchanging words I would have never spoken in my normal self.
"Thee girl in rain. It is youhh"
(I can make you understand but right now, it is hard to gather words I want to speak and after tonight, I might never have the confidence to face you again)
"This is our first meet Jake but I know you"
"Hooow?"
"When you have a face like this, everyone knows you"
"Issss this sssome kindd of joke? Thiss joke suck. Thiss party suck. Emma suck. School succck. everyone suuck. I just wisshhh...I wish.."
"You wish?"
"I wish I didn't exiiist"
"why?"
I faced her. Tears filling my eyes. It should have been embarrassing, I was 18, not 6 but it wasn't. I wanted to talk. The thoughts I called secrets began to surface.
"I am wounded. Deep innside I know I am born a broken man. I caan feeel this pain every night drowinng me but I don't even know whhat the pain is. Whyy am I sadd? I believe I havve people whho love me bbut love doesnnn't get to me. It lay outside my walls and I remmain freezing within it. I kknow you think I sounnd retarted, if I were you, I would bbut this pain, it's real, so real it hurts"
She kept looking at me and it felt good, her eyes on my face. We were so close, I could smell her cherry scented skin. We remained still, eyes locked. Then she carefully brought her fingers on my cheeks; soft, fragile fingers. I hugged her, hid my face in her sweater, my heart got louder. Happiness was real, I felt it.
Her warm breath on my neck, I was lost in her warmth. I slowly brought my eyes next to hers, stared at the blue pair of stars, brushed the strand of hair on her lips and kissed her. My first kiss~
