This story is about how much I miss my granny and how much of it is my fault

Hello! How are you? Long time no see. I miss you so very much! I can't believe so much time has elapsed since your passing. I clearly remember the day I walked into your bedroom to hear from you as mum told me you wanted to talk. I recall my terror when daddy told me that you were no longer with us.

I sincerely apologise for the day I stormed out when you suffered and needed me, instead of helping you. Thinking of you is a cheerful and tragic part of my life. I am falling apart and I need you here with me. Everyone tells me to hold on and to keep on fighting and be strong, but I can't do that anymore. I am just to tired and numb for all of that.

When you passed I took it hard-it was the toughest thing in my life. I think it's because for the first time of my life, someone who meant a lot for me is no longer with me.

I wanted you to be at my matric farewell, my graduation day, my wedding day if I ever get married, see your first grandchild from me. I am so sorry I wasn't able to say goodbye or tell you how much I love you and how much you mean to me.

I wish I had a magic wand to bring back time to spend one last hour with you to hug you and to thank you for everything, to say my proper goodbye. If only I had done that before you left, maybe the pain would been less unbearable.

I really miss you, hope your having a great time. I promise I will make you proud




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