These days, like the many days before, I am filled with worry, fear, and regret. I am scared to let go of all of the things that keep me in bondage to worry, fear, and regret. I do not sleep at night, I do not eat right, and I do not trust God. In actuality, trusting God is my biggest downfall. If I trusted God I would not be filled with worry, fear, and regret. I would be free, and I would feel free.

These days, like the many days before, I aim for perfection instead of giving it all to God. I do not let go and give all of my ambitions to God. I fear sometimes that there is no God and I am stuck in my deficiencies. I am alone in the universe without a friend, without a helper. I am deeply saddened by this notion. I have become reclusive with age. God, is all I have. But I fall short of Him because I aim for perfection when all I have to do is live.

In conclusion, I know what I must do. I must practice handing over my life to God. I need to get back to my Bible study with my cousin, and I need to wholeheartedly pursue God in all I do and tell Him my downfalls so He can help me. No more worries, no more fear, and no more regret
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