one thing I learned living life is that when you share your most inter self with the person you love a lot of times thing don't turn out the way we want them to or think it should.All I know is that life holds a valuable lesson we must all learn from our past mistakes and grow and trust within ourselves that some time we choose the wrong things in life to make us happy because we human and in the flesh a lit of times we love someone and forget to love ourselves. we put everything all our focus and engery on the other person beside us and forget about ourselves. all we see with our eyes is how we love someone and to later wake up and realize it was only a dream and adventure I been on all these years and you realize that you was on that ride all alone.the person who you invited in your life when you fell in love wasn't the one for you he wasn't the one God had for you. not equally yoked and you wasted so much precious time and half of your golden years putting engery where it shouldn't have been. You have to be true to yourself and know that just because you have trust and faith in that person don't mean they have the same trust and faith in their self not to hurt you. I learn that there's nothing or no one who can love me like God so I focus on him and not the things of the world because things of the world can cause you to stumble and cause you a lot of hurt and pain that's the things we run into when we lose focus on the most important things. sometimes we knock our own blessings from our father when we take on the things of this world and it's wrong. I keep this in my mind when it say why gain the world and lisa your soul.God always warns us and give us signs before anything happens. sometimes we get so busy and caught up in life that we can't hear our angels speaking to us from the father. we want the things we see and a lot of time the places we go and the things we do aren't good for us and God knows it he try to keep us away from the things that he know will hurt us or cause us pain.when we cry our father cries with us when we hurt he hurt with us he right beside us even when we do things that's not right because it what we want. but we have to remember that it's not about us or what we want it's about doing what's right and pleasing to God it's not about our want but what he wants for us and that's the best.and he showed us that when he gave his only son precious Jesus Christ.so as I go on this journey for the Lord I pray and ask our father not to let my running be in vain. I'm going to run this race the best I can and when I come to the finish line a want to hear my father say well done my good and faithful servant come on in. that's the day I rejoice and sing praise to my father for all he done for me. so everyday of my life while I'm on this journey I'm going to keep the faith and keep praying and serving God.He didn't tell me I wouldn't go through the storm's he said he be with me so I know deep within my heart that if I didn't go through something he couldn't use me to tell the story.and to share with you. so I'm thankful to him for everything I go through cause he always with me. I have a testimony of how good God is and what he's done for me. I thank God that I don't look like what I been through to God be the glory and all the praise and for showing me mercy and grace even when I know I didn't deserve it.and that's the way I live my life for the love of God no one other than God deserve me and can afford me no man or nothing no where can pay the price God has paid for me.be be blessed my brother and sisters and may God keep on blessing you and your families as we go through these tough times.