So everyone thinks am ok.So no one cares about me.Why is it that we don't get what we give.Wish I could go to some other planet very far away from everyone.It's better bieng alone everyone sucks.People come to your life you start talking,you get attached and then they leave.Do they even know what it feels like to be a loner.Why don't you people live us alone don't come, don't even think of me if you gonna leave.Don't lie to me we are grown ups nobody will beat you if you say the truth.You say we should talk about what is eating us up.How when what I feel can't be spoken I'd rather cry it out.Wished everyday was my birthday that fake love you get for a day.Atleast people care even if they don't it's good reading those birthday messages they send.Basically am all alone in this world." do this, do that"everything they say I do.Am hurting can't people see that who would see Ooh! I forgot no one cares.I care about others and think am stupid for being over caring.People say those who commit suicide are foolish or atleast they should have talked to someone.Talk to who exactly,the very people who hurt them?But you people don't have time you shouldn't blame them when depression overpowers them.And that fake awareness after one commits suicide."please check on your depressed friends"just that day and the rest of the time people forget too soon.It's ok I got me.I'd stay strong for me even in tough times.I'd still manage to smile for me and keep going to make me proud.Still got a long way to go hope my kid doesn't end up like me.That they will be hurting and I won't know about it.I'd be the mum every child would be envious about.And open arms to every kid who doesn't feel loved.Just this once I won't be weak,am not showing my weakness to anyone so they don't use it against me.I'll try make a difference and turn turn a blind eye on the manipulation which feels like love.I'll survive that's what strong people do.
© Grace kaj