Twisted hate ... no it's love.
you think i hate you
the truth is i love you but I don't know how to show it, my love is just a feelings that i have for you.
It isn't silver or Gold.
there won't be flowers or roses apone your door step. there won't be heavy letters with words of love.
My arms may not able to keep you warm.
i maybe yell at you some days when am hurt annoyed or ashamed.
i may have blame you for my own flaws.
i may have say somethings that I will definitely regret without a doubt. and you said i hate you.
You regret meeting me, you'd say am your biggest regret, because i don't love you.
The truth is fair more unfair because i don't know how to love.
i hurt you again and again. my cold heart breaks and melt each time.
i regret and regret each words I said and each time i said them, i may make you cry. i don't wanna make you cry.
if me leaving your life is the only way - you could be happy , then i would. if you say you nolonger want to hear of my existence then so be it. I will nolonger exist in this world.
i maybe not know how to love or how make you happy but i know how to be true to my words.

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Novel- not finished.
Letter by Kingston to his wife Ella.

© Vanessa lexi