Silence I am scared of silence that speaks, The silence that shakes my body, the silence that fights in my head with the monsters. The silence that brings tears... Tears in my eyes. The silence that take away a part of me, The silence that leave me broken-hearted. The silence that makes me go numb. The silence that makes my throat ache. I hate the silence that takes away a part of me, the silence that leaves me in the dark, the silence that paints my fears. I hate the silence that surrounds me, that surrounds my nightmares, the silence that makes me go weak & the silence that screams in my head. I hate the melancholic air that fills the room, the random thoughts that lives in my mind. The cold breezes that leaves shiver on my body. My head is spinning from all the thoughts, somebody has killed me, lifeless soul, my voice breaking into tears, the tears that roll down my cheeks the tears that paint the silence.
My heart that aches, bones broken, just lying lifelessly on the bed & glancing over the ceiling. Sitting in the bathroom, crying & crying until someone knocks on the door. Putting on a fake smile, pretending to be fine. Just Fine when you're actually not.

© alpha Stella

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