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I am not a nice person
Thought Jayi.. I am not nice. I am blunt, I am direct , I am honest but I am not nice.

Why yesterday only one of her closest friends got offended when she asked her to not persist in asking about Jayi's sister in law.

Jayi's sister in law is an aloof soul but for some reason everyone wanted to say she is always in contact. When Jayi said, she did not , it became an issue..

Her mother in law broke in tears, her spouse have her a stern look .. it seemed as if she was the aloof one and not Raji her sister in law.

Well, to be fair Jayi has understood that her husband Ramant hated her bluntness. He is a polished soul who could sell ice to Iceland.. He was also a persistent lier about everything on earth. If she asked .. have you eaten lunch. He will respond burping.. no I am too busy. . Even while chewing on a pasta or biryani.. his two favorite take aways in office.

Her mother in law will say.. let him be. He has always been like that. I have walked around it, you do too.

Now that is a nice information for Jayi to discover after few years of marriage.

Jayi was not entirely content with herself also though. As she seemed to be hurting other people by her bluntness.

"Goodness...have some tact..." Her friend Jaya will smile and say softly. May be Jaya should be living her life. Jayi often seemed to be an intruder and an imposter in her own lifw.

Why only last week when she caught her husband Ramant sending some questionable texts to his colleague... And proposed... "hei let's divorce .. "

He made that her issue of bluntness and inability to appreciate the beautiful medium path. "No one is so naive Jayi. Sms are ok. Flirting is ok. It's not as if I am doing anything but having some fun with a willing soul. Go and live your life too and don't come back and try to break the family ."

Now whoever understood that conversation she was not sure. It was not her. It seemed her widowed mother was affected when she shared. May be she should not have.. shared. Yet mother always painted a picture of Ramant that made him a bit of Shahrukh Khan and Salman Khan in movies. Mother did not appreciate that being pointed out either and said.. "Oh Jayi.. you should not share everything. "

Yet this was her parent who taught her to be an idealist, honest and pure... Anyways.

Today in the meeting at her coorporation where she held an important role .. a role that should not be displayed as it may hurt others in the family who did not have such a role... Anyways! So in the meeting her longest standing colleague Kay changed sides to support a short cut that would get them a regulatory fine if spotted.

Unable to control the quorum, as everyone started to make silly jokes and deviate from the topic, she walked off the meeting room, refusing to be a part and asking for another time. Soon they came back to align to her view whispering .. such a difficult person.

Kay messaged.. "Hei what's wrong mate ? You went bonkers.. Get some rest okay."

She felt like giving a blunt reply but contained herself to a "I am ok. Thanks ." She could almost here he say under his breath to his fellow member Krish .. You know Jayi right .. always on the edge.

So end of the day, she knew being nice was not her cup of tea. She had known for long, may be never quite faced it. Being honest ... Was. Bluntly honest and not with tact.

She told her reflection on the mirror that it was possibly not okay that she was not popular. But it will not be her, if she was not honest and blunt. The reflection have a shrug and picked up the heavy shoulder bag and walked out.
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