|| 3:30am||


I have noticed a pattern in my hormonal behavior.. During my PM$..I miss him intensely..amidst everything else in the world during that particular phase..I yearn to connect with him and be by his side even though I know it's not possible.!!! So..during those days..I find solace in scribbling.!!
Just last night..a similar urge struck me lol but the app glitched..causing frustration beyond words.. I was so irritated.. Literally...expressing the intensity of it is a challenge.!!
Nvm!!

Also I have been wondering..why HIM? Why is HE the one I remember? Do I still have feelings for him?!???
Well.. NOO!!!
The answer is loud & clear!!!
During PM$..Hormonal changes can amplify emotions..leading to increased sensitivity!! And we should not get confuse between the two!!
These are just temporary emotions linked to hormonal changes!!
I know.. It's hard for me even to think this way.. But this actually is the reality!! Why should I miss him when he doesn't even acknowledge my existence?? When he's already declared me 'dead' in his life,..why the heck should I miss him??
Last night..I shed tears due to hormonal disturbances..but please don't mistake it for weakness.!! I possess the strength to console myself and navigate through my emotions independently.!!
Unlike other girls who might need him..I am self-sufficient. I detest him. I hate him immensely..and I never want to hear from or see him again in my life!!
I am a self made independent girl and I need no man!!! I can do things by myself whether it's watching a movie or visiting restaurants!!


Also..
If any other girl feels the same during her PM$ don't stress too much. Temporary feelings should be treated as such... Avoid reaching out to your ex when you're feeling low..they may take advantage of the vulnerability.



Goodnight 🖤



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