This is what I'm going to call, surface living.

I am an advocate for #emotionalhealth and #mentalhealthawareness

I've been in great shape before, going to the gym regularly and eating healthily and I was at my most depressed state.

I always found that fitness brought me a temporary state of confidence which I could not rely on to feel confident from within.

I became addicted to working out and dressing up but I was not happy.

Within my heart ❤ and in my mind, I was unhealthy and even though I was physically in great shape, I felt completely at my worst.

Now, I'm a mum of twins, with a little mummy tummy, a great sense of self, I practice personal development, I meditate and I have reduced the time I work out to 20 minutes, but I do it daily.
I don't do anything that would require a rest day at the moment because I believe we need everything to come together to truly feel our possible best.

After going through years of depression and therapy, after suicidal thoughts and isolating myself, after years of living in shyness after being bullied at school, abusive and toxic relationships, topped off awfully when I lost my mum to cancer at 19, I cannot stress enough how much #personaldevelopment has saved me and improved my life.

On the other side, after years of pressure, I believe that we can come out stronger and grow into diamonds 💎

It's not all about the clothes we wear, the make up we put on and the body we have.

Don't get me wrong, I love dressing up and looking good, but none of that matters if I don't feel good inside.

Personally I don't want any photographers of myself looking amazing knowing that I was hurting inside and so, growth from the inside out is where I start.

#truth #growth #selflove
© Natasha Toshack