#WritcoStoryPrompt104
Do you believe that there's a love story planned for you? If you think so, share your thoughts in form of story with us.

A love story for me would be like a dream. In fact it would be a dream.

Only in my head.

There have been times that I felt that I want to be closer to someone, closer like in a dream. But right after that feeling, dread is all that is there.

I don't really know if I'm just afraid of love, or I don't want to love. But my whole life, I've never let myself love the way I wanted to.

Because of the dread. The dread is like a tsunami.

Every butterfly I've ever felt flutter in my stomach has been vanquished by that tsunami.

Does it make me a coward if I fear love?

Sure, I drown myself in distractions because sometimes it gets pretty lonely, and now those distractions have basically become my life.

And third-wheeling, wow, it's like the universe is slapping me in the face with my cowardice.

It's easy, you know, to just not do anything about it. But it's also pretty hard. I mean there were times when I just wanted to yell how much I really like so-and-so, but forethought could-be consequences shut me up, haha..

I never really tried. And, frankly, I don't really regret it. I don't know if I haven't found the right person, or I'm just allergic to feelings.

Either way, I don't let it get to me. I'm better off alone. ^_^

#mynonexistentlovelife,lol

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