When you are apart of something that the older you get you wish you weren't apart of anymore and im sure everyone is wondering what it is..... its family but not like any ordinary family. My family is very dysfunctional and toxic especially my bio mom see i would call her my mom if she was really one to me but she isn't she hasn't been in my life really and she is a bad alcoholic and abusive i have tried to have a relationship with my mom but she always puts her boyfriend(s) before me and my siblings. I couldn't understand why she put boyfriend(s) before us kids when we needed her the most she always hurt us with her words and she left us i was 8 the first time she left and then she came back when i was 9 about to turn 10 but of course she didn't last that long she only lasted one day and left again and got a divorce with my dad around my 10th birthday then my sibling moved with her a couple years later and i lived with my dad and i visited my mom but she was never kind. She then left me again she moved to ohio while i lived in kentucky because her boyfriend got a job offer and this job paided ALOT of money and my mom hoped on that train really quick didn't even care she was leaving me behind because she already had her favorite daugther so she didn't need me she hated me because she hated my father and because i was his daugther she punished me for things that didn't involve me she called me a whore and slut because i was confident about myself and she wasn't about herself so she wanted to destory my confidents. One summer lets just say my last summer with my mother she was mad because i called my dad because my glasses were broken and my mom said she couldn't get me new frames until next week but my brother called and they said they could get me new frame that day and then she got mad because she refused and i called my dad and told him and she got mad so she took me to go get new frames then the next day she asked if i told him i got new frames and i said no i forgot im going to text him right now and i got done texting him then my mom called me a bitch violently and i said excuse me your a bitch. I know....i know you all are like i can't believe you called your mom a bitch but i don't feel bad about it because one thing i was taught was to defend myself and i will always do that and if im going to be disrespected im not going to respect them parent or not respect is earned A few days later of the last summer with my mom actually my last day she was talking about things that happened in the past like always and i was talking about it with her then all of a sudden she started talking about something else that happened in the past she got very angry and started walking towards me yelling angrily i walked away into the dinning area then she aggressively grabbed me by my hair wrapping my hair around her hand and tried to smash my head in to the sharp corner of the wall but my friend safed me she made sure my head didn't collide with the wall. After that i got away from her and she told me i was not welcome and told me to pack my shit and call my dad to come and get me so i did but i didn't tell her about it only my brother knew so i left the house to breath and i walked to the store down the block and just walked around for a few hours and cried i was hurt i felt betrayed what kind of mother trys to bring harm to her child, oh i know my mother thats who. I went back to the house and all hell broke loose my brother told my mom i was leaving by accident and she got pissed and she was telling me to call my dad and tell him to not come and i was just confused,hurt,sad and alone no one had my bad because they were scared of her,i was sitting on the bed packing then she got behind me wrapped her legs around me and wrapped her hands around my throat and started chocking me and then my friend walked in and then my mom stoped choking me and still had her legs around me as i was catching my breath i told her to get off of me and then she claimed she was hugging me i was able to push her off,i finished packing and she went throw my stuff because she thought i had some of her stuff in my bags which she didn't find anything,then my dad called me so i went outside to take the call with out her yelling in my ear then she got mad and kicked me out and i had to wait for my dad outside in the cold getting eaten by mosquitoes and they gave me food which i had to eat outside. Then she opens the door and peeks her head out and says you can come inside you know that in a bitchy way and i said well i didn't know you kicked me out then she shuts the door and i walk inside and put my phone on the charger then my dad called and said hey when i get there im going to text you and i want you to come outside don't tell anyone you are leaving and hand me your bags so we can get the hell out of there,so thats what i did and i sent my mom a text telling her i left and she just said ok and like that i never saw my bio mom again.
© toxichurt